Our story
This is not the story of the humans who stayed on Earth. You know what happened to them. They allowed the greediest and most violent among them to make the decisions. They cooked themselves along with the surface of Earth.
It is the story of the doomed race's desperate escape into space. The Armstrong program was intended to locate resources outside of the solar system. It was not a mission of colonization, but rather a long term suicide mission for the crew. Perhaps, the mission parameters reflect the values of a culture in catastrophic collapse. Instead of bleeding off excess population, or an attempt to give the human race remote outposts to inhabit, Armstrong would bring yet more burnable and fissionable materials back to a planet whose atmosphere was no longer breathable.
Armstrong 1 tumbled into the sea along with a long section of western coastline while it was preparing for launch. Armstrong 2 exploded before she could leave earth's orbit, and it was believed likely that a member of the crew had sabotaged it. So, Armstrong 3 was not a strong try, and it's crew was not composed of scientists or star athletes. Every human alive now is descended from a motley group of refugees who were themselves on the run from natural disasters and endless war. Their ship was put together from scraps: A section left over from the previous attempts, and some orbital maintenance craft. The ship's AI was a relic cell phone from a technology that was long forgotten.
So, keep this in mind as you review this account of the flight of what we will call A3. Neil Armstrong was the name of the first human to step onto a planet other than Earth. He stepped onto the Earth's single moon in 1967 AD. The date represents the number of years elapsed since the death of a powerful political and military leader named Jesus. From now on, we will use the more common LE [LeftEarth] calendar, which started when A3 launched. The account itself is written using audio recordings, a personality profile from the surviving cell phone, scraps of the captain's log and fragments from crew members hand written journals.
Chapter 1 – The Launch From the log of 'Captain' Bess Staggart
What a friggin joke! The universe does have a sense of humor! We are launching Armstrong 3 on July 4th, which is the traditional holiday where folks watched things blow up in the sky. It is the 3rd try, and the number 3 also has traditional meanings. 3rd time lucky, 3 times a charm, but also: 3 strikes you're out!
Anyway, this morning after dawn, we were herded onto the ship at gunpoint, like condemned prisoners about to be executed. The launch location was Fort Collins, Colorado. It used to be the center of a vast country, but is now a sort of giant concentration camp. Joke of Jokes, I am designated 'Captain', as if a firework that will soon entertain the other prisoners by exploding over their heads actually requires a commanding officer.
As the countdown got down to double digits, I gave the order to 'light em if you got em'. The condemned get to enjoy one more earthly pleasure before they meet their maker. Our bridge was like a circus side show. Our fine crew is composed of fuck ups and murderers, with about a year of school between the lot of us. I am captain because I am able to write and to add numbers!
To paint the picture, I am strapped into the captains chair, which is a rotten old seat from an SUV. I am a tiny blond woman, so I look like a child strapped into a grown up seat. Just ahead sit our 'navigator' and 'pilot'. Jake is a sort of scarecrow pirate dude with a missing leg. He can repair any kind of machine, but his abilities to navigate outer space are not well tested. Jed is a fat little scary clown with one eye. He operated fighting robots in the final war, so he is actually moderately competent to fly the A3 in the unlikely event that she does not immediately blow up. There is some irony in letting the guy who can barely walk find our way, and the guy who can barely see hold the controls of the craft.
Our coms officer, Bareth, is a huge black woman who is formidable in a fight, and can actually hear! The Security station is occupied by a slender man with great dreadlocks. He is named Doll and is very gay. It is as if the least qualified person in the ship were stationed to each post. I guess that it is what you might expect, if scrappy, desperate soldier/criminals were gathered from the battlefield and forced onto a doomed ship.
We extinguish our smokes as the countdown reaches single digits, and tighten up the hastily rigged full body harnesses that hold us tightly to the motley collection of old car and aircraft seats. As the chemical rockets ignite, I realize that the harnesses are made of tanned animal hide with the fur left on.
The craft itself is a modified troupe carrier from the early days of the war. It holds the 5 of us comfortably, but I can not imagine how it can be used for a long journey. It is little more than a cargo container with some instruments strapped to the walls and the seats bolted where the soldiers used to stand holding their weapons.
We are slammed back into the seats, and the carrier pulls away from the ground. I realize that we are lifting unevenly, and shout “can anyone figure out what is going on?” I guess that weak line was my first captainly offering.
Jed glances back with “this thing has 4 motors. Motor 2 is not getting enough fuel. I am starving the other 3 motors a little, and correcting with directional thrusters.” Sure enough, I feel little tugs to the side and the sounds of the little motor beside us operating intermittently. It is clear from the single view-port that we are still headed up, but in a slightly jerky, corkscrew trajectory.
Bareth speaks in the super calm monotone typically used by the radio operator in world war 2 movies. “ Bad news, ground control came under attack just after we lifted off “. She switches on a speaker, and we hear the cracks of small arms fire and the roar of rockets. She repeated again and again, “can anyone respond” ? Finally, a panicky voice comes on the line: “they got the control tower with a rocket. This is James, the cook that gave you breakfast this morning. You guys better duck, because they are directing rockets at you now.”
Jake is staring fixedly at a screen fastened to the wall near his chair, which looks like a swivel chair from a fancy camper van. “holy shit!” he says “there are 2 rockets gaining on us … If they have enough fuel, they will hit us in around 20 seconds”
Jed barks “are they jinking back and forth like the d6 heat seekers ” ? Jake responds with “yep, corkscrew trajectory, impact in 15 seconds....” Jed starts messing with the pilot controls mumbling, “I know what to do with heat seekers.... “ and announces over the ships intercom: “ brace for impact” He hits a large control, and the main engine quits instantly. He fires a attitude jet to spin us around, and we watch in amazement as both rockets pass us by and destroy each other! They had been looking for the hot engine, and when we killed ours and turned the hot metal away from them, each found the others engine.
After that strange zero g maneuver, Jed spins us back around, and relights the main engine. I, for one, am getting pretty queasy as the gravity goes from 4 or 5 Gs to free-fall and back again. Jake is keeping track of our position and velocity vector, and calls for Jed to cut the main engine. We are back to weightless again, but, this time, things are calm and quiet. This crew does not look like much, but they are actually operating fairly well!
Having arrived at the altitude of high earth orbit that we have been given, we drift in zero g, and look around. Broken high tech junk is scattered all around, so it seems that the starship that we have been sent up to has already been destroyed. This takes the fight out of my brave crew, and the bunch of us start moaning and passing around a massive joint of very good cannabis.
We had been captured soldiers, astronauts, and now are stranded space-farers, all in a few hours time. We are just starting to plan out what to do to survive when a sort of giant robot drifts into view on one of the main screens fixed to the arbitrary 'front' of the troupe carrier. It is ungainly, with spindly arms folded against it's sides, and bins of tools and parts affixed all around it's thick waist. It looks like a space tick that attaches itself to fat ships and draws nutrients from them.
The tick ship has huge bay windows, through which we can see humans looking quizzically at our flying brick. I hold up my hand in the classic cell phone position, and Bareth gives them a call on the emergency frequency. When she points to me, I speak into the microphone built into the ancient cell phone affixed to a sort of console beside my car seat. “ This is captain Staggart of the …... ummmm, …. un-named and stranded star-ship. May I ask your business?
We see them scrambling around in there, looking for the source of the transmission. Finally, we see one of them lift an object, and hear : “Hey there. We thought that you had been destroyed during take off. We are the crew of the busy bee, and I am James Tibia, the acting captain. We were part of the entourage around the Gates space station, which was itself destroyed around a week ago. We have been waiting for you, and have been placed under your command.
Another absurd craft comes drifting slowly up, trailing puffs of visible exhaust with each maneuver. It looks like a bell, and also sports large windows. Who puts bay windows in spacecraft? In short order, there are 4 maintenance ships attached to our 4 personnel locks. It seems that lots of the maintenance crew were killed in the attack on the Gates station, and that our mission is to be scrounged together from equipment and people that survived the destruction here. I read a lot of science fiction in my youth, where generation ships are constructed carefully over decades, and the colonists are hand picked from a large group of applicants who are highly qualified, and who wish to leave earth.
In this case, everyone wants to leave earth. The air is no longer breathable, The surface of the planet has been entirely ruined by 4 decades of nuclear, chemical and small arms war. Our normal attire on the surface is a sort of powered and armored space suit. We eat synthetic food, and food that was grown decades ago, before the land was made toxic. We hear little but explosions and commands, breath canned air, eat canned food, and our 'work' is the killing of other human beings. The human life span has decreased to an average of 36 years of age, and most people die in a battle, or kill themselves. There are almost no live births any more, so we have become a dead end civilization. It is only remarkable that folks keep fighting and fucking. I am the most stubborn person that I know, so I understand how this kind of situation can come about. I am always the last person to leave a party, and I can not stop striving toward some end, no matter how ridiculous and unlikely that end may be. It is like a very bad movie that one has watched for hours. It has become impossible to look away until the aweful movie ends.
The human race has been sorted. When the rest of the world declared war on the United States in 2026, the lazy, the obese, and the suicidal were the first to go. When the war went badly, like when the east coast was entirely lost, there was a cascade of suicides numbering in the tens of millions. There was some irony, because the folks who had best prepared themselves with equipment and supplies were often first to do themselves in.
From the audio journal of Jake Stevens: I guess that I am the science officer on this wreck, so I have been given an ancient voice recorder. I am well older than the other bridge officers, so my record of events might be slanted in a different way.
A3, as we call her, was launched in the middle of a battle. Our side actually lost the battle decisively, and it turned into a gambit where we risked a small army to get this low percentage space shot off of the ground. We barely foiled an strong attempt to shoot us down, and are now meeting the rest of the crew. They were already in orbit, so, when we arrived in our own stable orbit, they docked with us. Captain Bess invited them aboard. They entered Armstrong from 4 distinctly different types of orbiters: a culinary unit loaded with tasty food and a space garden, a maintenance unit with skilled techs and lots of tools, a pleasure unit that is like a space brothel that makes house calls, and a defense unit bristling with spy shit, weapons and ammunition. Gates station has been destroyed with a single unlikely missile hit that took none of the support craft. The craft had originally supported the Gates, Bezos and Zuckerburg stations before their respective destructions.
It was a bizarre meeting, with our crew still in our armored fighting suits, and the others clean and nearly naked. We were as filthy as it is possible to be, with our suits decorated in a camouflage pattern of soot, blood and shit. Many of us are missing limbs and organs, having seen countless battles, including the deployment of biological, radiological, sonic and energy weapons in addition to high explosive weapons. The other crews were composed of flawless physical specimens with perfect grooming and immaculate cleanliness. Their eyes were not bloodshot or squinted or wrinkled, because they had not been exposed to sun, wind, and the fearful weapons of war. I had only seen such humans in the pre ww3 movies. They had head hair and facial hair, while our bodily hair is shaved or worn off so that our suits can seal properly. Their garments ranged from g strings and decorations for the pleasure staff, to tailored work suits with lots of pockets for the maintenance workers.
Our mismatched group floated around in the zero g, meeting one another. I could not help but admit that the situation was comical. Stinking, beat up and heavily armored soldiers packed in with prostitutes of both genders, Cooks and high tech custodians. Most of our crew were still sick from the evasion maneuvers and the new sensation of zero g. All were shell shocked and exhausted from decades of fighting. The younger members of our platoon had all been born during ww3, so I was glad to see a few gentlemen and ladies that were closer to my own age.
As far as I know, only Bess and I were aware of our orders to eat the less crucial members of crew after our other rations ran out. In my mind, it hardly mattered. These remnants of a once great orbital community had lives measurable in days or weeks if they stayed in Earth Orbit with no space stations to receive supplies from earth, or to provide spin gravity and military protection.
After our meet and greet, Bess got us into a rough circle, and began a strategy meeting. When consulted, I suggested that make gravity by spinning our craft, and figure out how to leave our home planet before we were shot down. China, russia, and a few countries in Europe still had remnants of their ballistic missile batteries, and ground based rail guns. We were sitting ducks. We spun up the ungainly arrangement, but it was not at all balanced, and wobbled a lot. The spin gravity produced was weak, had Coriolis effects, and varied in a cyclic manner due it's unbalanced configuration. But, it was a start, and allowed us to strip off our fetid suits, and get clean in the pleasure module. We allowed ourselves 6 hours to rest, eat, and relax after the stressful escape from Earth.
Bess: Our platoon had been hounded across much of Western Utah and into Colorado in the last weeks. Our numbers had dwindled to our present handful. The conditions for us were pitiable, with almost no ammunition or food, and many injuries. I now found myself in a bubble bath! And, I could see my vagina for the first time in those weeks. It was surrounded by a shadow of fine hairs, that had grown since I last viewed my own piss flappers. I smiled when I saw that Jake and Jed were looking hungrily in the same direction. Hahahaha, I was once quite a good looking woman, but my breasts have melted away, I am covered with burns and scars, and my blond hair is 5 mm long. My very last injury was a bunch of shrapnel in the helmet, so my face and scalp are covered with zipper-like scars.
I have a burning joint in one hand, and a cold beer in the other! And, no one is shooting at me! I am beginning to feel as if we might pull this off. I regard my soaking companions. It is hard to look at Jed, as he has removed his eye patch, revealing a ragged hole in his head. He is in his mid 40s, and I notice for the first time that he is not actually fat. He is a compact muscle man, or would be if he got some decent food. He looks like a snail that has been pried from it's shell, and left out in the sun to dry up. He must have been beautiful in his youth.
Jake is more of less the opposite of Jed. He is well over 6 feet tall, and if that is normal, it is clear that people were much larger before the war. He is shriveled on his tall frame, like a statue of a man made from beef jerky. He is also hard to look at naked, because the stump of his missing leg is a total mess. I am to blame. He had stepped on a mine while we were trying to raid a Chinese camp for food and ammunition. The explosion and the screaming alerted the Chinese, and they provided us with heavy fire and gas. While trying to shoot back, I noticed that Jake was writhing on the ground beside me. His suit had deployed it's built in below-the-knee tourniquet, but the gas was melting the flesh from the protruding bits of calf muscle. I gave him morphine, cut away the flesh below the tourniquet, and tried to do something with the splintered bone that still protruded. The saw on my multi tool was too dull, so I used the serrated edge of my mini shovel. I put a spare glove over the result, and taped it up. After we had limped the remains of our platoon out of enemy territory, we found that the gas had melted the glove and the tape onto Jake's new stump. We were out of morphine and most medical supplies by then, so it was difficult to clean up the stump, and to fit a foot of oak to the result. I Sincerely hoped that our new crew included someone with medical experience.
When we were clean and relaxed, some gorgeous humans brought us thick towels embossed with the Gates station logo and colorful, flawless clothing. We learned their names, and were told that the pleasure module was also the medical module. No one was shooting at us, so we proceeded to the food module through the pressurized walkway that had been deployed around the perimeter of our wobbling wheel. The maintenance workers were going about their tasks with silent efficiency and skill. They had all kinds of tools that I had never seen. They were overjoyed to have something to do, and accepted direction from Jake with obvious relish.
We were seated at a table hastily rigged to the wall that was now the floor. It was a little hard to swallow with the gravity varying with time, and jinking a bit from side to side. But the food was amazing! I did not recognize the look or the taste of the vegetables that were tastefully arranged around the grilled fish and rice. Again, the culinary staff seemed overjoyed to have hungry people to feed, and a mission to accomplish. Desert consisted of real coffee and a baked goodie called a croissant. Jake knew about coffee, which is a stimulating soup made of burned beans. Doll and Bareth were seated with us now, and it gave me a warm glow to see the beat-to-hell remnants of our fighting group smacking their lips and purring with pleasure. I began to nod after the feast. Supported by 2 unfamiliar humans, I was led back to the pleasure unit where I was helped into a hammock, that rocked me to sleep in seconds.
Jake:
We were bathed and fed in the sort of luxury that rich folks enjoyed before the war. The young remnants of our fighting group collapsed into hammocks right after the meal. They are wonderful humans, but they are stunted and physically weak. People do not grow up properly without good air and food and medical care. I was by far the strongest of my platoon, even though I was senior by 20 years.
The coffee woke me up a bit, and I sleep about half as much as the 'kids'. So, after bedding down the rest of the bridge crew, I headed for maintenance. I was introduced to Vanessa, the captain of the unit and a very attractive little Asian elf. We first attended to the wobble, so that our absurd ship would not fly apart without needing any missile to assist it. Vanessa brought me to her office, where we used a computer with a wall sized screen. We assessed the wobble, and found that the maintenance section was as heavy as any 2 of the other units. The center of rotation was midway between maintenance and the troupe carrier that formed the central hub. The extra mass was mostly in spare parts. Her eager crew distributed the really heavy parts to the lighter units, and then shortened the walkways attaching it to the carrier, and to the adjacent pleasure and culinary units.
We got rid of most of the wobble, and then started monkeying with the lengths of the pressurized walkways connecting the hub to the wheel, and connecting each of the 4 units of the wheel to the adjacent one. We got our wheel 'trued', and returned to the hub to spin us up to a really comfortable gravity so that the wheel units were somewhere close to 1 g. Of course, each area of each unit had a spin gravity that varied with the distance from the center of spin. The lightest unit was the military unit, so we had extended it's connecting tubes, and it's gravity was the greatest. The maintenance unit, still the heaviest, had the lightest spin gravity. The hub was a problem. Since the center of rotation was not in the center of the unit, the gravity varied a lot depending on a person's location in the unit.
At that point, I ran out of steam, and joined the bridge crew for my standard 4 hours of sleep. We all awoke at around the same time, and headed back to the food unit. On the way, I noticed that the huge windows of the pleasure unit provided a really disturbing view. The stars and the giant disk of earth sweeping by at a relentless pace. I solved the puzzle of the huge windows. It was meant for zero g sex! It would be quite a treat to look at the stars or the ruined planet while doing the happy space dance.
We had another big meeting, this time including the military, who had showed up last to our spinning junkyard. The big concern was how to move the 'ship'. The chemical fuel tanks were mostly empty, and no more deliveries were expected. Vanessa had a spare central power unit for the Station. It fused matter to produce electricity and thrust and heat. It could accept any matter at all, and the more that you fed in, the more power and thrust that it produced. We formed groups to work on various problems. Of course, I joined Vanessa and a few of the better educated techs to rig up the power unit. The military folks had a small armed shuttle, and most of them went out in it to scavenge stuff that we really needed. Anything left in Earth orbit was up for grabs. The maintenance folks had a bunch of repair robots and a few extra large space suits with thrusters and tools.
Jed de-spun the ship. Van and I went out in two of the suits while a tech used a robot to gather any usable materials from the cloud of debris that was once Gates station. We decided to create a superstructure of aluminum that would allow the fusion drive to push our contraption without breaking it apart. All of the units had standard air locks, as well as standard fittings intended to bolt on additional tanks and equipment. While a tech used the computer inside to figure out the best place to push on the hub, we got started welding and bolting. Several techs brought us aluminum struts from our stores, and several others sorted space junk and trimmed the best bits for use in our sculpture.
We got the thing built that 'day', slept, and attached the drive unit the next day. Our soldiers returned with scavenged parts, fuel, food and more. We put some of the salvage to use right away, and soon had the fusion drive hooked up so that it could be fed matter and controlled from a station that we attached to wall of the hub. The drive itself could be reached by crawling 'up' a pressurized tube when we were using spin gravity, and by doing a space walk in free fall or when under thrust. It was not safe to work on the outside of the ship while spinning, unless the worker was strapped tightly to the hull.
One day blended into another, as we connected the 5 separate units for power, water, communication and control. We heard nothing from the earth rotating below us. In the last few years, the atmosphere had been damaged so severely that smoke signals worked better than radio signals. We could see explosions, one of which put out the lights of the last city visible from space.
We watched as the last large ice shelf pealed away from Antarctica, followed immediately by mile-thick ice bergs that had been waiting just behind the shelf. The resulting waves were clearly visible, and the seas swelled to cover more coastline. Ordinarily, I would be reluctant to leave a perfectly good planet, but Earth was no longer that good planet.
Captains log: The parts of our ship are now connected into a fairly sturdy arrangement. By sheer luck, we are the only object that is left orbiting Earth that possesses military capability. Thus, we have been able to refill our chemical propellant and water tanks, and stock up on Oxygen and Nitrogen. We already had literally tons of food, but we now have a working grow room with all kinds of plant starts and seeds. In our last full crew meeting, it was decided that this mission was not to be a suicide mission whose purpose was to locate stuff to haul back to Earth. We have changed it to a colonization attempt. Hanging up here above the natural disasters and war has put our situation into perspective.
But which way to go? If we intend to head out of the solar system, the nearest systems with planets are tens or hundreds of light years away. We certainly do not have the equipment or support that would be needed to terraform a harsh planet or moon. We need to find one that already has an atmosphere and liquid water. We need not stay near Earth, which will require thousands or millions of years to recover from it's infection of greedy and warlike humans. We have to depart before someone is motivated to send a nuclear tipped missile our way.
Science came to a halt when the war started. Some planets are known to exist, because the star dims slightly when a cool body comes between the star and our telescope. We would be able to boost at 1 earth gravity using half of our matter supply. The second half would slow us down for our visit to the chosen solar system. We did not have a fancy generation ship built over decades. We had a flying scrap-heap. So, we picked a close one. If anyone was still alive when we arrived, we could at least find matter to continue the search if the first try was a dud.
Jake's voice record: It took 3 months to get ready, and then we took away our spin, got the ship pointed correctly, and lit the fusion drive. It was a little hairy, because I remembered that a fraction of these prototype drives blew up instead of making power, heat and thrust. We had a good one! We now had a wonderful, steady 1 gravity that did not vary from 1 to 0 g depending on location in the ship. This proved too much for the orbital crew, many of whom had been born in space. We settled for .8 g, which was very delightful for the Earth born, and tolerable for the space born. And our velocity increased in a most gratifying way. It would be our children and grandchildren that would reach the star system, if it turned out that we could survive and reproduce.
As for fuel, we had changed the nature of the mission, so we did not put people into the drive. We used poop. Yes indeed! The first human mission to the stars flew on a plume on ionized shit. This really tickled my sense of Irony. Seeing how well mankind had done as stewards of our once lovely jewel of a planet, it was strangely fitting.
I had been raised on Science fiction novels and movies. In these, space-farers zip about from adventure to adventure, with some kind of major human or mechanical problem solved during each episode. Our trip was nothing like that. Most of our crew had been raised in a totally isolated gated community, and were accustomed to going to work each day. They had raised the children, washed the clothing, and repaired the 'homes' of the wealthiest humans that had ever existed. They had defended their space city against attacks from Earth, and from the defenders of the stations. And, other than myself, the bridge crew had spent their entire lives fighting an all out war that lasted for over a generation.
For us, uneventful ship life was like being in heaven. We were eating the finest delicacies, and we socialized with the well educated and physically flawless humans. To us, the space-born were like angels. They were not violent or crude like infantry soldiers. On the other hand, they had no real leaders, and needed us to make the sort of decisions that their mega rich employers had once made for them. It was a magical partnership. We were accustomed to tons of action and excitement, so we would have faced problems like obesity, boredom and suicide without the calming influence of the space-born. In short, they knew how to party!
If the trip had been filmed, it would have been a porno flick instead of a space opera. The fusion drive had a maintenance cycle of it's own. It would be shut down periodically to clean out the tube where the decomposed matter was accelerated to create thrust. It was a great time to get out of the ship and work on the various hulls that protected us, as well as the framework that supported the drive. A suited worker need not be tethered to prevent the ship from scooting away at .8 g. It was also a great time for 0 g sex. It was not long before we had some pregnancies, and our first big surprise.
Susan Brisk, a young member of the pleasure staff, gave birth a little over a year into the trip. The boy baby had breathing lungs and a beating heart, but was otherwise unresponsive. Dr. Jane Stoddard, also of the pleasure crew, could find no brain injury, and no evidence of a birth defect. Was it was sheer bad luck that our first in-flight birth was a perfect looking Downs syndrome baby? The drive appeared to be running clean, with just some low energy gamma rays and neutrinos leaking out. We were well out of the solar system, and far from sources of ionizing radiation.
So, when Heady Fry gave birth, we watched that second male baby intently. Alpha Fry had the same problem. As the months elapsed, neither Alpha Fry or Saturn Brisk recognized their Mothers, or attempted to raise their heads. While this was not an all out disaster, the Armstrong mission looked like it would be a flop as a far as anyone reaching the new star system with consciousness. Then, we had our first in-flight fatality. The military staff was being cross trained to perform maintenance, as there was no fighting to do. Steve Cross took a high energy particle through the midsection during a zero g space walk. It did not even puncture the suit, which could repair itself from such common events. But his heart was stopped for 15 minutes while we got him inside, and it could not be restarted. Simultaneously, Saturn gave his mother Susan a huge smile, and began to gurgle and wriggle about.
The timing was too coincidental to ignore. It appeared that we were isolated from the well of human souls. We had the 103 souls that we had taken from Earth, but could not obtain more souls. Someone had to die and give their soul up before a baby could become concious.
The Frisks wanted a soul for their baby. They wanted it enough that the father, Horace, offered to kill himself. He was of the military crew, and had a long standing feud with his superior. The two decided to fight a duel to provide the soul. Killing 2 birds with one stone, as it were. We used the largest chamber in the maintenance section, which housed the majority of our spare parts. The parts were re-arranged to provide a fighting arena and a viewing area. It was a very strange event, because the combatants had been raised around each other, and were really pretty good friends. Their differences had arisen over years, and they had been amplified by the close quarters of the ship. Everyone was pretty darn sick of their constant bickering, which had become a sort of knee jerk response for the both of them.
They chose to battle hand to hand, so we lit the drive to provide a steady .8 g. We set up a sort of fence around them, so that no spectator and no spare parts would be harmed. Both fighters were in spectacular condition, and sturdily built. So, the contest dragged on for hours. It was really quite surreal. Their were many rest breaks, during which Horace and Sam chatted amiably for the first time since launch. They still hated one another fervently, but were relieved to be dealing with the issue. Finally, Sam dashed Horace's head hard enough onto the deck plates to end the battle. Crew members had begun to drift in and out of the audience after it became evident that watching people fight for such a long time was no more interesting that watching an all day porno film. But, of course, Alpha and Heady were present, and the infant began to croon at the exact moment that Horace breathed his last. The father's soul had migrated to the daughter.
Captains log: I thought that this was a mission of escape from a trashed planet. But, It has turned itself into a spiritual journey. It seems that we have only the exact number of souls that we left Earth with. If someone is born, they need to wait for someone else to die before obtaining consciousness. There are some open questions, such as 'what happens if someone dies and there is no empty baby to receive the soul?' and 'is it our velocity, or our distance from Earth that is causing this interesting complication?' If the souls are part of Earth, then there is little point in colonizing another planet. It can only ever have 103 conscious human inhabitants. If it is a velocity issue, we will have access to more souls when we slow down relative to Earth.
Since we were sent to find resources and not to colonize, we have a random selection of creatures and plants that can not create an ecosystem. We do have some very practical and skillful people. And, driving around in space with soldiers, cooks and space prostitutes is a lot better than fighting an endless and unwinnable war. Rather than stranded in space, I prefer to think of us as enjoying a 4 generation long space vacation.
My own attitude has really shifted during the months of launch preparation. I was born to a migrating sort of scavenging and fighting tribe. It was also a bit of a cult, eschewing a strange mix of old time Judaism and native American nature worship. If I had to describe my own position in the tribe, it was assassin and spy. A small independent tribe's best defense plan is to penetrate and if necessary, behead the nearest large tribe. During my 3 decades of life and fighting, I have seen the war go from an invasion of the United States to a mad free for all. When we were driven from an area, we were just as likely to find our tribe fighting a more religious Jewish Tribe as opposed to a Muslim tribe or a remnant of the original Chinese or German invasion forces.
Yea, I am treating the official captains log of Armstrong 3 as a chatty diary. On the other hand, if the human race survives, future humans might be curious about what happened here. I am ready for some answers myself: When we slow down, will we have access to a supply of souls? If someone dies without a baby to inhabit, does that soul stay with the accelerating ship? No one has gone this fast before. We are not sure that it is safe to get close to the speed of light. Does matter turn into light at some point? We are exploring many aspects of reality at one time.
About babies, I am starting to think of that exact subject as the shell shock wears off. I have searched my workings to figure out what sort of daddy feels right. I am leaning toward my science officer, even though he is ancient. Compared with Jake, every other crew member looks deformed and stunted, and seems mentally handicapped. I must look stunted and slow to him. Not to mention, shriveled and unattractive compared to the amazing, succulent women of his pre-war days.
Jake's spoken log: 2 years have passed, or the planet that we have left has orbited it's star twice, since we departed that solar system. We are between stars, and moving at .2 C. We have little to do except to look way ahead for bodies that we definitely should not hit. We would be lucky to see a unlit block 10 meters on a side for long enough to blink before hitting it. And, hitting an object one meter on a side should be enough to vaporize us. An object the size of a sugar cube could let the air out of many pressurized areas.
There is the small problem that nearly half of the crew wants to have babies, but apparently, someone has to die to animate each new person that is born. There is some speed or distance limit for the human soul, and this fact could only be discovered by the first fools to get going really fast. This only seems like a problem because we have begun to decompress from the war, and can now think about other things besides avoiding land mines in a landscape of buried munitions, or drawing a few more breaths of canned air while remaining isolated from the scorched and toxic atmosphere.
That is what I remind myself when I feel at all low. Even if we had no destination at all, and were not loaded down with food, fuel and breathing gas, we would still be better off. I estimate that the earth currently holds just a few tens of millions of humans. Each day, that number drops. It is easier to count surviving species of mammals than to enumerate the lost species. Ordinarily, one could feel homesick upon leaving one's planet. I only feel relieved.
Another thing that I never again expected to feel is amorous. I have always had a tendency to dislike and avoid people. My mom said that I had been a troubled baby, crying at loud sounds and bright lights. I had difficulty sleeping, as the sleep state resembled the dead state a little too closely for my comfort. And, of course, I had trouble mating. I am a very vigilant monkey who is always looking for danger. And, since the start of the endless war, danger has been abundant. Other people are not potential sexual partners. Rather, they are sources of disease, injury and irritation. At best, they compete with me for food and air. At worst, they are sources of equipment and nutrients.
Lately, I have been feeling drawn to people. It is strange, because the wartime inhibitions are still in place. From a distance, the attraction seems like hunger. But, as I draw near, I find that I do not seek to eat the persons flesh. Instead, I wish to learn about the person's habits, and to understand what motivates the person to continue living. Male or female, they all look young and short and perfect to this old wreck. In fact, the younger crew members all look like the same person. It is only the older crew members that look like individuals. I really like to work with Vanessa, but I am not drawn to her. It is the captain that draws me toward her. Like a massive object in space, she bends space so that I wish to orbit her. My eyes go to her often, and it takes a massive effort to look in another direction. My body tries to occupy the same space that she is already occupying. Like a star, she radiates the wavelengths that I require for my well being.
For my part, I try to hide my attraction, and to supply an anti-gravity that keeps me at the proper distance. I can only imagine her distaste for her absurdly tall, wrinkled and one legged science officer. She hides it well, and continues to rely on me for my physics degree and mechanical handiness. She puts up with my pre-war anecdotes, and my fascination with bad ironic puns. I am going to try to speak with Bess about this topic.
NOTE: Jake recorded some of his lectures after he became a teacher. As the only crew member that had lived before ww3, he had certain frequently asked questions...
Jakes class notes:
student: why did you leave the sol system. Wouldn't it have been much easier to try to terra-form Mars, or even to hollow out an asteroid?
Jake: Great question! Why travel 4 light years to a strange multiple star system when the sol system still had bases on dozens of planets and moons, and there were still many unexplored asteroids and moons? The war had raged throughout the solar system, and there was no sign that it was letting up. When outposts are abandoned in wartime, they are usually booby trapped, and purposely despoiled. The outposts had not been set up as great places to raise children. They were mining and weapons making operations that were also military forts.
No matter where we went in the sol system, we would never be safe. Also, and this may not make sense at first, but we were a people that had only known war. It seemed wise to wander in the desert for 40 years, and raise a generation of humans that knew only peace. Lastly, we were shot at during the launch, and were not being given time to make careful decisions.
Student: What was it like at the start of ww3?
Jake: The situation took a long time to develop. WW1 and WW2 were both started by People in the European continent that wanted more land. They also wanted to gain control of the entire planet. But, the rest of the world ganged up on them and defeated them fairly quickly. Both times, it took less than 5 years.
WW3 was pretty much the United States and Israel fighting the rest of the world. The US was reluctant to switch from fossil fuels to renewable fuels. So, when the world supply of burnable hydrocarbons got harder and harder to pump to the surface, the US started taking over other countries. There was a country called Afghanistan, and then one called Iraq. It was a replay of ww2, where the aggressor, Germany, took over 2 countries before any other countries came together to stop them.
So, when the US took over the third country, the rest of the world had combined it's power to bring the bully country to it's knees. The problem was that the sides were actually pretty well matched. The whole world combined had crushing sea and land power, but the US and Israel kept control of space and the majority of the off planet colonies. This lead to a war that lasted for 4 decades. It ebbed and flowed back and forth, with the world winning decisively, and chasing the remaining US military into space. Then, the US would return to Earth with some devastating new weapon, and gain control.... When we left, this cycle had repeated so many times that humans had deliberately ruined the Earth and all of it's nearby colonies.
Captains address to the crew at year 10 event: We have been heading toward the Centaurus system for 10 years now, so we are a quarter of our way into the 40 year trip. We have been accelerating at 1 G, and will be for another 10 years. Then, of course, we will slow down for 20 years. We started with 130 souls on board, and have had to control our births and deaths so that total is constant. As you know, we have settled on a bout or duel per earth year, unless a fatal accident makes a bout unnecessary. Thus, we are proud to have 10 space-born crew members that have never known Earth. I wish that these children had not known violence, but, of course, their own births had been made possible by fatal duels.
We have been putting our dead into the engine, as well as any items that we brought that have not been useful. We need to make some pretty big decisions soon. It is possible to cut the engines at any point, and then spin the ship to create simulated gravity. When we are close enough to slow down and stop at 1 G, then we can figure out what else to convert to energy to create the thrust. We are already short of water, and some trace elements, so we have to reclaim those valuable materials before feeding matter to the engine.
As for our limited well of souls, We have many questions about this surprise result of relativity. Will souls be able to reach us after we decelerate to explore and settle planets? Perhaps there are souls already there? The physics of the human soul is not well understood. We are the first humans to go so quickly.
On that note, I would like to ask someone to take over the captain job. This is the official announcement that your present captain has a bun in the oven after patiently waiting her turn. The culprit is none other than Jake, who I coaxed using the very last bottle of single malt scotch in this area of space. Who ever takes the job can give it back in a few years if they do not like it. Due to my age, this will almost surely be my one chance to spring off an offspring. I like the job, but I would not be able to give it much attention while breast feeding. I see that no one is eager to accept the captaincy, which is probably a good thing. The job should not go to a person who craves power over others, but rather, to a person who can see the whole picture, and is reluctant to exert authority.
With that said, Beth stepped down from the stair that she was standing on so that she could be seen. Jake came over to her, and wrapped her in a big hug. It looked to the crew like an adult clutching a child. Jake and Beth were the largest and smallest adult members of the crew, as well as the two oldest.
The next emergency, as told by Jake: Our next big problem is The mass crisis. We really wanted to get to the nearest star system to sol with some original members of the crew still living. We were doing our best with the physical and mental education of the young, but they were space born children of parents that had also spent part of their lives in earth orbit. We expect them to have some problems entering a gravity well, and have no clue how strong that gravity will be. That is the Nutonion way to state it. Einsteins new way of looking at gravity has the new star curving space so that the planets go around it, with each one thinking that they are going straight. Anyway, we need more mass to put into the converter if we wish to get to the Centauri system with living earth-born humans in the proposed 40 year time frame.
We have tried grabbing mass with a giant magnetic scoop, but the particles that we grab slow the ship when accelerated to the correct velocity to bring aboard. The lost velocity was not quite regained by the mass converter. We tried finding particles that are already heading in the same way that we were, but have failed to get anything but virtual particles that often pop back out of existence before they can be used. Killing half the crew would work, but no one wanted to be the missing mass.
The answer occurred to me in a dream. I saw the ship, reconfigured in a line instead of a ring. One of the units was missing. So, we shut down the converter entirely, got everything useful out of the pleasure unit, and cut it apart. We arranged the remaining units in a row along the direction of motion, and rebuilt the walkways between them. It took about 2 weeks, and then we started to burn the parts of the pleasure unit. We did some math, and figured out how much to burn, so that we would not have to sacrifice another pressurized unit to the converter. The quickest trip time with the fuel that we had would give us 2 years of free fall before we turned the ship around and pointed the converter the other way to slow down. That 2 years could spell disaster. The space-born were already pretty spindly, and it seemed unlikely that any of us could live on a planet after 2 years of loosing muscle mass.
This problem is no emergency, and we have almost a decade to figure out a solution. After all, we do not know if there is a livable planet in the Centauri system, and we can not guess what sort of gravitational field and magnetic field we would find if there is a planet the correct distance from the main star.
On a personal note, I have certainly never fathered a child. Not on Earth, and not while hurtling through space on a nutty mission to seed another star system with human beings. However, I plan to keep right on solving science problems, and filling the role of second in command of
Armstrong 3. Beth will be doing the heavy lifting in bearing and raising our star hopping infant. I hope that someone steps forward to take the captaincy, so that I do not have to move into that position.
A birth in space, as related by Beth Junior when she could dictate into the cell phone:
The duel has been held, and our half blind pilot is being fed into the mass converter, minus his water, phosphorus, and a few organs that were not too worn out. I am a week overdue, and getting worried about the size and increasing weight of my baby. What the hell? Is she trying to get to my size before making her appearance? We have few medical supplies after a decade of flight, so there will be no pain killers or anesthetic, and no complicated surgical procedures. I will push this child out, or die trying. I have been a soldier and in constant mortal danger for much of my life, so this is just another battle for me. The penalty is the same as an Earth battle, but the rewards are more interesting by far.
My water broke while I was on the bridge, watching Jake and his science team attempt a new method of capturing matter. The idea was to deploy a strong magnetic field in a funnel shape around A3, and coax charged particles into a spiral path that would bring them into a special strong tank that had been rigged to the hull. We got charge particles all right, but they got too heavy as they were accelerated to our present fraction of light speed. They turned the special tank into a colander. In less than a minute, the tank had been sawed neatly in half by the rapidly spiraling particles within. The birth started while Jake was talking about some kind of magnetic bottling inside of the tank that would allow the particles to slow without scoring the walls.
I retreated to my bunk with Jean, our midwife. I tried to push my daughter out for 3 days and nights. We tried our last muscle relaxants, but she would not emerge. Finally, the midwife made the incision to make my vagina larger, and the baby exploded out at the touch of the knife. I had a glimpse of the infant, but she was lying still in a giant pool of someones blood. I guessed that it was my blood, but before I could think another thought my vision turned red and the lights went out.
A moment later, I opened my eyes. Jean was holding me. I could not see properly, nor was I breathing. She gave me a little shake, and pulled some stuff out of my mouth. I spit up some more material, and was able to take a breath. It felt strange, as up until now, my lungs had functioned more like gills in thick fluid. My ears were plugged up, but they cleared a few minutes later. Jean was working with my mom now, who was clearly dead. She had split open, like the victims in the alien movies. Jean stitched her closed, mopped the floor and gathered the soaked sheets. I knew that the water would all be reclaimed. In fact, I knew a lot of things that a newborn should not know. I was the captain of A3, and partnered with it's science chief.
My thoughts were hampered by the newly made and mostly un-wired infant brain, but I knew that my soul had migrated instantly from Mother to child. The pilot's sacrifice now seemed like a waste of souls, and I wondered if Jed's soul would fly with us as we continued to accelerate at one Earth gravity. It would be a good experiment to skip the next duel, and provide no new soul for the next crew offspring. It was not that risky, as newborns could apparently be left soul-less until the next crew fatality.
Jake's audio log: I had no way of knowing that my new baby girl was also my wife. Apparently, the soul went directly from mother to daughter at the moment when she was orphaned. It was clear from her gaze, and from crude attempts at hand signals, that this infant was very special. But, her brand new vocal cords could create only stuttering cat's meows.
I was stunned for several days, as my very favorite person out of the few that had departed earth was abruptly gone. Every time that I turned a corner while moving through the labyrinth of the ship, I expected to see my sweetie coming towards me, with that slightly lop-sided grin. Then, I would remember that we had already recovered the minerals and water from her vacated husk. There had been some words as the remaining dust was fed into the converter. The only female person that I had ever really cared about had been traded for a little bit of velocity as we neared the flip around time.
Baby Beth: I soon gave up trying to communicate with the adults, and spent a few months watching the trip as a kind of movie. I insisted on spending days on the bridge with my dad and husband. It was amazing to watch him solve the many physical problems associated with gathering mass to keep us at one gee after the turn around point.
My mind was new, and it's wiring was formed while thinking about our current predicament. We were going so fast that we had begun to behave as light in some ways. We grabbed at charged virtual particles and single atoms of gas and dust with ultra strong magnetic fields that we had learned to create during the trip. We did not need to capture much of it for the mass converter, as bringing the particles to some velocity between their previous velocity, and our fraction of the speed of light, slowed us down just fine.
We found as we slowed, that more and more of the particles could be captured and fed into the converter. There was no problem maintaining the amount of simulated gravity needed to keep the bones and muscles of the crew strong. We proved Einstein's special theory of relativity, in that there is absolutely no difference between changing ones velocity in a steady way, and going near to a massive object. Gravity is not a force that pulls matter together. It just seems that way. Matter bends space, so that heavy objects seem to attract other objects.
Infancy is a waiting game, that one starts with no mobility and no ability to communicate. It might have been boring, except that I was still on the bridge of Armstrong 3. Following a crew vote, the captaincy had passed to the science officer. Jake had kicked up a fuss at first, until he realized that the additional work would keep his mind off of his loss. So, in a strange way, I was still sort of the captain!
Jake's audio log: At several weeks of age, Beth can lift her head, and has begun to use her hands. Aside from the cooing sounds that she makes, her hands are often busy trying to form signs. She already wants to communicate! I followed a tutorial on American sign language, and found to my amazement that my newborn baby was already using it to create sentences. I only needed to learn to understand the signs, as Beth understood my spoken words perfectly. She was able to describe in signs the strange sensation of being born to ones-self.
Who would have guessed this strange conservation of souls rule that the universe seems to stick to? Will our population always be limited to the size of our original crew, or will we have access to a larger well of souls once we have slowed down? I feel as if we have fallen off of the flat world. The physics of the human soul was something that we had cheerfully taken for granted.
Enough of my personal life. The mission is going better than we had any reason to expect. Try as I might to trick someone into being captain of the ship, the sons of bitches simply elevated me from first mate to captain. I did not forget my physics just because I was given another job. In fact, we had accelerated for too long to be able to slow down with the mass that we started with. We gambled that we would learn how to capture mass as we gained velocity. We did learn how to make much stronger magnetic fields, but we never really got much mass to put into the converter to provide thrust.
We will flip around and burn the other way, ardent in our hope that we will figure out how to gather mass enough to slow us down before we arrive at the Centauri system. We were having a big physics brainstorm on the bridge, with me holding baby Beth in my lap upon the captains chair. We had focused the strongest magnetic field that we could generate forward, into a funnel shape that we had worked out. Particles would be captured in the open end of the funnel, and were lead, in a spiraling and decelerating path, through a magnetic bottle neck into a container. This container had been attached firmly to the ship during the zero g period when we flipped. Sadly, almost all of the particles escaped as their tremendous accelerations were converted to furious spin about the inside of the magnetic bottle.
Beth suddenly started cooing and hand signaling with animation. The signals came too fast, and I only caught a few. The word 'Anchor' is the only sign that I remember. Then, she pivoted about in my lap, and began to work the controls for the magnetic bottle. I moved to stop her, and she let out such a squeal that I backed the hell off. She totally re-aimed the magnetic field so that it was behind us. She then changed the shape into a gigantic parachute instead of a bottle.
I shook my head because I was supposed to be the science dude, and I had no idea how the magnetic bottle could get any matter by dragging it behind in our wake. It was then that the new pilot, a blond teen named Abigail, announced that we were now decelerating faster than expected. She was able to back off the consumption of matter in the converter, so that we would have a good velocity for planetary maneuvers exactly as we reached our new star. I started to help Beth to adjust the shape and size of the field so that the most deceleration was noted. The best shape ended up looking like a pair of opposed hands dragging fingers as if to tear a hole larger.
So, yea, my Baby, who is also my wife, figured out that we did not need to capture any matter to put into the mass converter. Simply dragging at the matter without trying to bottle it allowed us to open the bottle shape into a vast reverse funnel that behaved like a magnetic parachute. By the time we were done fine tuning the field, our mass consumption had dropped enough to allow us some thrust after our arrival!
Baby Beth: I am no longer an infant. Now, I am a very agile toddler. My movements do not have the polish obtained from years of using one's muscles, but I have the skills of a lifetime at my disposal. Sometimes I forget which body that I am in, and make an error like tongue kissing my Husband/father. I can stay up for more than a few hours at a time, and my physical brain has developed enough to be used for abstract thought and long range planning. I can speak haltingly, but some sounds can not be formed with short vocal cords and no teeth.
Armstrong 3 is now so short of certain trace elements that members of the crew are dying from diseases similar to what ancient seafarers suffered from.
Fights to the death are no longer needed for 2 reasons. There are ample souls available, and women are no longer healthful enough to bring a baby to term. We still have years to go before reaching Proxima, and it is not clear that anyone will be alive when we arrive.
I am amazed at my own ability to do empirical science. The new brain has developed without the constant threat of war. Instead, it was nurtured in a loving and safe community, and challenged by sticky physics problems. We have lost the instruction booklet for the mass converter, so that no one understands how it works. It is a black box that accepts matter, and gives back electricity and thrust.
But, I believe that the converter can do more. I suspect that it works by taking apart the matter at the atomic level, and exploiting the binding energy that used to hold the atoms together. It is worrisome to monkey with the drive before it is done slowing us down. But, we need a few males and a few females to reach Proxima alive.
Jake: We had a crew vote, and it was decided that Baby Beth would be allowed to modify the mass converter. It is liable to kill her, and to leave us hurtling along at high velocity with no way to slow down. But, our current projections show that 0 people will be alive when we get to our new planet.
There were some weeks of studying particle physics, and creating a custom space suit and a tiny tool-set that a toddler can use. Then, we killed the drive, and my life partner drifted over there in free fall. She used a power driver to remove a tiny round hatch, and crawled on in.
We had rigged a simple intercom, and were surprised when we heard peals of laughter from the toddler. It seemed that the device had been designed to be operated by nincompoops, and had very simple instructions printed on the inner surface of the unit. In less than an hour, Beth had turned it back on, and changed unwanted mass into buckets full of water and heaps of elements that we needed to return to good health.
The mass drive itself was a small sphere inside of a much larger anti- tampering shroud. There were other treasures within this shroud, including a very sturdy notebook computer, incredible tools, and a detailed manual for the converter. The manual, titled 'general purpose reactor, tamper resistant.' soon revealed it's secrets.
Not only could the drive transmute elements, by bombarding them with neutrons, but it could be used to separate water into hydrogen and oxygen, create vast amounts of heat, or to create a pretty large explosion. It had been factory preset to make thrust with a few percent left over for electricity. But, it could make power without any thrust and visa versa. Because of the method that it used to make electrical power, it was also able to release a tightly collimated beam of charged plasma. The beam resembled the output of early science fiction ray guns. It was useful for taking matter apart at a distance.
I let out a huge sigh when I saw my Baby/wife crawl out of the drive unit, dragging a big bag of tools and booty that she had found inside.
Beth: My mind is going at a mile a minute, as folks on Earth used to say. In my personality is still plenty of distrust of humanity, and the scars from the horrible struggle to survive on a ruined planet. But my brain is made of new mind meat. It's connections and wiring had been formed while slowing down at one G, and approaching a mystery solar system. All of our problems now are physics problems , and not problems with tactics or strategy in war. We have not had a fight to the death in a long time, because so many of the crew have died from nutritional difficulties since we started running low on potassium and trace metals.
In my bag are smaller bags containing a good supply of the needed elements, and we can easily do the chemistry to convert the elements to digestible powders that can be eaten and added to the water that feeds the hydroponic plants. We will be able to make other matter into oxygen and hydrogen, and make water! Finally, we can again have more than zero percent humidity in the air, and remain hydrated with tasty beverages that are, of course, our own recycled pee.
Saturday, February 29, 2020
Thursday, February 6, 2020
Marching morons rant
The marching morons is a very good short story written in 1951 by Cyril Cornbluth. It predicts a future of infantile and unintelligent humans that have completely overpopulated the earth. They travel about in electric cars that are none-the-less wired to make loud sounds, and to spew out copious amounts of smoke. They drink only colorful sports beverage.
There is a movie based on the story, and it is called Idiocracy. It is able to use some recent changes that have taken place in the US to predict an even more absurd future.
As i move about in my obstinate old man manner, i am confronted by these folk. Obese blobs whipping by in huge showy SUVs, while eating crunchy bits and chatting on the phone. I was once on the good side of the inequality, with the backing of a prosperous family, and posessing the right qualities of youth, male gender, extra height, education, white color, etc. Well, i have crossed firmly over to the have-nots now, and it is really different. I collect food stamps, await crappy Chineese items in a mailbox that quickly fills with paper advertisements, drive a ruined car, etc. When i try to work, i am asked about my licensing and bonding. Only jobs that have been rejected by all bonded workers are offered, and that sort of work often goes unpaid. They are other poor folks, forced to troll the local bulletin boards, looking for a new poor worker to defraud. It is just business!
People once chose their contractors according to skill level, but now almost all work seems to be insurance driven. Insurance companies decide what work will be done, and who will do it. The morons decide which insurance company will hold onto their emergency money, and tell them what to do and when. They brag to one another when they feel that they have ripped off or defrauded an insurance company. And yet, they long to be 'covered' for any unfortunate events that might occur. And, of course, they do not need to save money in case they have an emergency. that is what insurance is for!
Being covered by every type of insurance does not make the morons jolly. Instead, they seem desperate, and needing to do some 'business' of their own. Let the buyer beware of Craigslist and e bay! Using their telephone and computer, the pudgey super heroes attempt to strike back at other consumers for the blows that they have suffered. I understand the feeling. I have recently spent hours on the phone trying to contact state insurance, making mistake after mistake in a clearly intended circular path that has the caller speak to tape machine after tape machine with no results at all. I feel the futility that must be intended. The rich do whatever they want, and the poor march around in circles and wait on lines.
Modern humans ought not to be herded into rooms (schools), and made to look and listen to explosions (cars) and loud advertisements all day long. It keeps their feeble minds on the subjects of travel and money. Nature is portrayed as something to avoid by using electronic equipment. Everyones best friend is the steaming dragon that awaits them at all times (their car again).
An obvious campaign has been waged to get the marching morons to live short lives where they are frightened into staying put, and performing some pointless repetative task instead of learning and traveling and growing plants.
It would not work, except that the morons are kept constantly immersed in the false illusion, and confined/protected in the middle of a herd of other marching morons. Constant advertisements and explosions are required to keep them from returning to their natural state of wonder. I don't mean to suggest some giant conspiracy theory. It is not necessary. All that is needed is to concentrate on money and it's admirable amassing.
The country of Syria recently downsized it's population. It was only business! They used their military to throw out the fraction of the population that was not desired. They forced them to march themselves over the border, where they would become something between somebody else's problem, and a weapon of economic war. The United States is doing something similar. People are being forced from their homes, and converted into economic refugees. It is a culture of fear that keeps workers at absurd jobs. Mechanization is helping to eliminate jobs that have not been outsourced to poorer countries. There appears to be No alternative to a future with self driving cars and robots that can drive or work way better than a person.
Americans don't really do much anymore. They pay for stuff to be done, and say that THEY did it. Or they do work with fossil fuel, and claim that THEY did the work. Their lives are entirely scripted, and they have almost no choice in the direction that their lives go. Seeking money is really what they do. Art and exercise is mostly ignored. Making money seems to be enough for most folks.
Get enough of the green stuff, and avoid getting GOD angry, and you have it licked.
That is the motto!
I say that life is too short to be confused about the purpose of life itself. Life is for looking at the spark in oneself and others. what is that spark?
Its pretty!
end rant
There is a movie based on the story, and it is called Idiocracy. It is able to use some recent changes that have taken place in the US to predict an even more absurd future.
As i move about in my obstinate old man manner, i am confronted by these folk. Obese blobs whipping by in huge showy SUVs, while eating crunchy bits and chatting on the phone. I was once on the good side of the inequality, with the backing of a prosperous family, and posessing the right qualities of youth, male gender, extra height, education, white color, etc. Well, i have crossed firmly over to the have-nots now, and it is really different. I collect food stamps, await crappy Chineese items in a mailbox that quickly fills with paper advertisements, drive a ruined car, etc. When i try to work, i am asked about my licensing and bonding. Only jobs that have been rejected by all bonded workers are offered, and that sort of work often goes unpaid. They are other poor folks, forced to troll the local bulletin boards, looking for a new poor worker to defraud. It is just business!
People once chose their contractors according to skill level, but now almost all work seems to be insurance driven. Insurance companies decide what work will be done, and who will do it. The morons decide which insurance company will hold onto their emergency money, and tell them what to do and when. They brag to one another when they feel that they have ripped off or defrauded an insurance company. And yet, they long to be 'covered' for any unfortunate events that might occur. And, of course, they do not need to save money in case they have an emergency. that is what insurance is for!
Being covered by every type of insurance does not make the morons jolly. Instead, they seem desperate, and needing to do some 'business' of their own. Let the buyer beware of Craigslist and e bay! Using their telephone and computer, the pudgey super heroes attempt to strike back at other consumers for the blows that they have suffered. I understand the feeling. I have recently spent hours on the phone trying to contact state insurance, making mistake after mistake in a clearly intended circular path that has the caller speak to tape machine after tape machine with no results at all. I feel the futility that must be intended. The rich do whatever they want, and the poor march around in circles and wait on lines.
Modern humans ought not to be herded into rooms (schools), and made to look and listen to explosions (cars) and loud advertisements all day long. It keeps their feeble minds on the subjects of travel and money. Nature is portrayed as something to avoid by using electronic equipment. Everyones best friend is the steaming dragon that awaits them at all times (their car again).
An obvious campaign has been waged to get the marching morons to live short lives where they are frightened into staying put, and performing some pointless repetative task instead of learning and traveling and growing plants.
It would not work, except that the morons are kept constantly immersed in the false illusion, and confined/protected in the middle of a herd of other marching morons. Constant advertisements and explosions are required to keep them from returning to their natural state of wonder. I don't mean to suggest some giant conspiracy theory. It is not necessary. All that is needed is to concentrate on money and it's admirable amassing.
The country of Syria recently downsized it's population. It was only business! They used their military to throw out the fraction of the population that was not desired. They forced them to march themselves over the border, where they would become something between somebody else's problem, and a weapon of economic war. The United States is doing something similar. People are being forced from their homes, and converted into economic refugees. It is a culture of fear that keeps workers at absurd jobs. Mechanization is helping to eliminate jobs that have not been outsourced to poorer countries. There appears to be No alternative to a future with self driving cars and robots that can drive or work way better than a person.
Americans don't really do much anymore. They pay for stuff to be done, and say that THEY did it. Or they do work with fossil fuel, and claim that THEY did the work. Their lives are entirely scripted, and they have almost no choice in the direction that their lives go. Seeking money is really what they do. Art and exercise is mostly ignored. Making money seems to be enough for most folks.
Get enough of the green stuff, and avoid getting GOD angry, and you have it licked.
That is the motto!
I say that life is too short to be confused about the purpose of life itself. Life is for looking at the spark in oneself and others. what is that spark?
Its pretty!
end rant
Tuesday, December 31, 2019
busy monkey
What it's like to be a busy monkey:
I realized that I was not a typical person when very young. Just looking around, and savoring the aromas, and listening to life's sound track was way too stimulating for me. It will be difficult to explain to a reader that is not a busy monkey. Colors are too bright, sounds are too loud, and smells are much more intense than is required to identify the odor. This can be very entertaining. For example: laying on the ground looking at ants while birds sing is like a fantastic movie that lasts all day long. It can also be a huge problem when the stimulation gets too great. The busy monkey is likely to misbehave and to retreat into a protective shell.
I had other senses that I naturally assumed were shared by the human race in general. I could recall past events with unusual clarity. For instance, I was able to purchase my college text books, read them from cover to cover one after the other, and then return them for a full refund. My test scores were nearly always 100% with no studying at all. But, there was no trick to that, because I could look up the answers very quickly in the mentally photographed pages, or recall the appropriate lectures word for word.
I also found that I could tell what people around me were feeling. Again, I thought that everyone could do that, and I wondered what all the talking was about. I found that one person that was in a good mood was no problem. But 3 people nearby provided too much signal. A person that can see auras clearly told me that mine was as big as a city block, instead of extending just slightly past the skin. If I was not able to draw that aura closer to me and stayed in a city, I would literally die.
A good memory is not always disturbing to the owner. It can be like money in the bank. I have been trained for many professions, gaining skills easily. One need keep no records. The down side is that I recall stressful events very clearly. It is hard to be around people when you remember every stressful event that you have shared with them. It helps if you have experienced many positive events together. If you can tell what they are feeling, that makes them very real and 'persony'. You can step into their shoes, and they need to be comfortable shoes.
I do not believe that I am mentally ill. I certainly seem so when overstimulated or trapped. Despite the gifts, my life has been one of constant flight. I can't stay in a city, where people, with their emotions and schemes, are thick. I fear any type of captivity, so that makes personal relationships close to impossible. I have managed a 3.5 year relationship with a woman, but we probably broke up 60 times in that period. I succeed at nearly any job that I choose, but a formal job is similar to a prison sentence of indeterminate length. The most difficult job that I attempted was field engineer in the oil field. There was a solid 10 months of intense training, with a kind of final exam for the small minority that made it through. I ran a crew for 2 years then, writing bills of up to $120,000, and receiving bonuses of up to $3000 for a single visit to a well site. I learned to care for the crew on the road, controlling their drug and alcohol consumption, and making sure that they were well rewarded. I handled disasters, including a well explosion and a high speed highway accident complicated by explosives and dangerous radioactive 'sources'. The US part of that company [precision drilling] failed, and I was the last engineer in the US to be laid off as they wound down their American operation.
I love to take photographs, and have been recognized with grants and sales of expensive art images. It is very enjoyable to let others glimpse my cartoon world. I have made some documentary films, including one where I was the subject of the film [A desert life]. It won awards, because it allowed viewers to feel like a busy monkey for a few minutes. I was to be flown to the awards ceremony, but of course, I was unable to undertake the trip out of fear of over-stimulation and captivity.
For a long time, I occupied my time scaling cliffs, often with no rope. I have a body deformed by German measles during gestation. I was able to whip it into some kind of shape so that I could travel about and climb the most difficult climbs in the US. I did this for about 40 years, taking a break in the middle to try academia and heavy industry. I traveled a loop along the Rockies, and then back along the coastal mountains. For income, I guided climbers, sold images, and repaired climbing shoes. At the age of 55, I encountered chronic soreness that made it impossible to continue. My friends were nearly all dead by this point. Un-roped climbing is a mostly a self regulated activity.
I began to take care of remote properties. With my ability to use tools, hunt and endure long periods of being alone, I was the ideal caretaker. Each client told me that I was the best that they had tried. The other caretakers had visited the place infrequently, and did the bare minimum to keep it going. I stayed there, totally content to do my busy monkey stuff. I was then hired by an entire family in Moab, Utah. They gave me a nice car, and bought the old hospital in Moab where I could live. When the family vacationed, I moved into the parents house. I began to work for a solar installer in Castle Valley, and built my first tiny home in that isolated town.
Moab was very good for panoramic photography, with it's red rocks eroded into all kinds of interesting shapes. The town itself grew greedy in time, and converted itself into a noisy, unpleasant playground for fossil fueled recreation. I towed my 19 foot travel trailer behind my Jeep to Washington state, to prove a new well at a friends property. The Methow Valley proved to be a somewhat pristine area, with a river that always runs, and is was protected from exploitation by the federal government.
I built more tiny homes, carrying one to California to show to a perspective buyer. I rolled that one on the way back, and injured my pelvic floor in the process. I was able to sell the wreck for a fraction of the material cost, and build more. By this writing, I have built a 10 by 14 observatory, an 8 by 12 bedroom, a 6 by 8 tool shed, the 8 by 16 tiny home that rolled, an 8 by 8 kitchen, an 8 by 10 climbing gym, and a 10 by 12 foot shop.
I moved up the valley from Carlton to Winthrop, and began to work for another large family. I concentrated on operating heavy equipment when not building portable solar buildings. I made trips to the parent's ranch in eastern Washington, serving as welder and mechanic. I received some big city medical care, including the removal of all remaining teeth and the fashioning of dentures. That is where I am at now, having achieved 61 years of age. I continue to build an elaborate castle for myself, become trapped in the castle and then kick the castle down.
Monday, December 16, 2019
a month at a run down ranch
I was living on an amazing property along wolf creek.
I had fought the neighbors tooth and nail to be able to exist among their elite number without constant calls to the county, the health department, and the fire department.
By being a very considerate neighbor, i had worn down their hate over the course of a few summers and a winter. Now, some had actually started to visit the first tiny home community, and to give me the sort of gifts that rich people cast off like golden turds as they proceed through their privileged existences.
My goal was to improve the 45 acres that dominate the flat center of the valley where Wolf Creek meets the Methow river. Once it was possible to reach all of the 9 non-divided 5 acre parcels in a passenger car, my ambition was to create clusters of tiny homes with large solar energy systems that required little energy input from the outside. Every building would be portable, so that the 5 acre parcels would be subdivided and sold with a well and a septic system, but no other infrastructure.
I was underemployed, because many of the neighbors would not hire a non licensed worker who was also mostly despised. But, being a pretty stubborn dreamer, i just continued to create the buildings while living on food stamps, exploiting the food bank, and enjoying the fantastic health system in Washington.
A young gentleman named Russel was added to the property by the owners. It was done by telephone, without a careful physical inspection of the equipment that he meant to bring to the place. Russel had a ruined Winnebago dumped off of a tow truck in the center of the property, and then hauled in a ruined slide in camper tied with rope to an ancient self made trailer. He had been evicted from the areas lowest quality campground.
The neighbors became frantic, because they perceived that their flawless retirement hide-out was becoming a low-end camping ground. There was trespassing, photographs, and the county shut the property down. I had 60 days to depart. The ruined RV would remain there, abandoned by Russel.
The owners parents have a large ranch near Spokane. I had been there twice before to help with welding and mechanics. The Ranch is in it's final stages of collapse. There are no buildings that can be used save a metal shop and a metal storage barn. The other buildings are in ruin, with a row of collapsed structures trailing away from each standing structure. There are no machines that work properly, including the passenger vehicles. Just hundreds of wrecked machines and trucks all over the place like a crazy junk yard. I have not seen a meter of good fence on the place, which attempts to imprison several thousand cattle and a few hundred bison.
The ranch has trouble attracting able help, because there is no place to live on the ranch. Capable workers do not do hazardous work for minimum wage with no benefits at all.
Thus, the ranch is worked by ancient hands that get crippled and die by the time they learn how to use the ruined equipment. The owners are now getting too old to work the place, so there is need for a real clean up, and perhaps, a habitable building that could house a young family that might be capable of running such an operation.
A deal is struck with the elderly ranchers. I would pay 10 hours of work per month to stay near a ruined house while i remodeled it. The son and I brought over one of my tiny buildings so that i would have a clean and pleasant place to live while i did the remodel. it would literately take years, so the ranch bought me a nice pick up truck that i had found with cosmetic front end damage. Only, the ranch backed out of the purchase in mid stream, leaving the son to purchase the truck in my name. It is a nearly perfect Toyota Tacoma, but with a smashed front, bald tires and filthy oil. I need such a truck to change between the coast and Eastern Washington, but my Jeep Cherokee is already adequate if i stay on the coast.
I move into the tiny home and spend a few days trying to clean up the area to purchase my months rent. Then, I attempt to begin the remodel of the house that is completely full of hoarded trash, dead animals, and toxic dust composed of asbestos, mold and animal droppings. I have a room mate, who is an elderly worker from the Ranch. He is supposed to help clean the building, but is too self centered and insane to do anything but clean 'his' room, and to play with his hoardings. He begins to bring his stuff to the house, filling the entire room from corner to corner with boxes of old magazines and conspiracy theory paperwork.
The female head of the ranch claimed to be too busy to think about the remodel, even though I had arrived during the last month of good weather for building. I was given no materials, and instead, was disturbed at all times of day with ridiculous tasks like driving the same cows into a pasture with ruined fences each day. There was welding to do, but she was also too busy to get the welder fixed or to order the many things that are needed to weld and do mechanics. I busied myself trying to clean up the shop, which has a dead backhoe occupying the center, and all kinds of junk littering the floor. The tools were in heaps and covered with grease and used oil, even though i had arranged and cleaned them on a previous visit. to get any work done, i had to bring my own tools and safety equipment, and even my own electrical and welding supplies.
There was no way to order parts, and no way to really replace the broken tool attachments and materials that i was using. I just soldiered on anyway. A terrific storm then damaged my tiny home so that it can not be heated any more. I moved into the ruined house after cleaning a room as best as i could. it is still way too filthy and stinky for a sensitive person to live in, but i had hopes that the remodel would soon fix that.
My room mate turned out to be not a worker, but an insane elderly conspiracy theorist. For his work, he seems to be a sort of professional con man that operates on the very edge of the law. He feels that he deserves to live in the house that i am trying to repair because he has successfully attached himself to the ranch as a permanent parasite. He begins to suck my blood, requiring me to rotate his car tires, and to perform each of his tasks at the house after he fails to do it. It is ridiculous, and I realize that no remodel was ever intended.
I run the parasite out of the house. It does not really work, as he returns again and again to beg me to let him stay. Having a human parasite attached is very uncomfortable. He kept pestering me until I blocked his phone, and offered to call the sheriff and have him hauled off.
Meanwhile, the son has arranged with a local lumber yard for me to get materials at his expense. I drove into town with the still wrecked Tacoma that had bald tires and no insurance. I was still putting my own gas into it, but had made no repairs at all. I brought back a truck load of materials, and used my own tools and fasteners to create a roof over the entry of the building. I then pried up the asbestos tiles in the bathroom, and put in a composition floor. When the ranch woman found out, she was furious. The remodel was then officially over, and i was paid 45 dollars per day for my efforts.
I find myself with a unusable tiny home that should never have been brought across the state to a fraudulent remodel. I have a truck that i do not need, and can not repair or insure with the 45 dollars per day. I finally repaired the wire feed welder, and waited over a week for the inert gas bottle to be filled. I was called again and again to do tasks that should not be done, and required to do the tasks incompletely and incorrectly. It is a very bad feeling for a retired field engineer to work in such dangerous conditions, with no way of getting supplies, and basically no pay. The 45 dollars of 'pay' is actually half of the per Diem living expense that i received when doing dangerous work in the oilfield.
I have been welding for 2 weeks now, and have ruined every pair of pants, and my only hiking boots. The welder now feeds the wire reliably, but it has a further electrical problem that allows it to sputter molten metal all around instead of laying down a good bead of weld. I am able to repair way more complicated devices, but not without use of the internet and suppliers like amazon.com. I used the welder as it is, getting burned, and eventually sputtering molten steel through all of my layers of clothing onto the screen of my cell phone. Two days before this writing, i got hurt monkeying with the parts of a giant feeder. I realized abruptly that i had no support on the ranch at all. If my injury had been severe, i would be treated just like a homeless person that had wandered onto the place and gotten hurt.
I do not enjoy being a captive on a ruined ranch. Luckily a second son lives near Spokane, and he may have some construction work for me. I will get my teeth plucked out and replaced with dentures. i will see a surgeon, and find out if my pelvis can be repaired. And I will travel a bit to see if anything changes on the ranch during my absence. It looks like I will have to bring the degraded tiny home back across the state and sell the Tacoma. What a gigantic waste! The ranchers will die leaving almost no accommodations or working equipment. The sons are not equipped or inclined to take over the distressed operation. The livestock will be lost, and the leased parcels will be rented to someone else. I am not sure if a ranch in this condition can be sold for the price of totally empty land. The cleanup might cost a great deal, and go on for years.
I have hurt my back severely on the ranch, and now seem to be taking sick with depression and COPD from spending time in the ruined house. I am not tempted to end a fairly entertaining and adventurous life by dying of poverty on a ranch that is doing the same thing. I am documenting events without naming names; not to punish, but because it seems to reduce the pain slightly.
Thursday, October 10, 2019
Trouble along wolf creek
Shame on the elitists of Wolf Creek!
My name is Alf Randell, and I have been working to revegitate and clean up the center of the valley where Wolf Creek meets the Methow river. Thus far, it has taken one and one half years.
From the moment that I arrived to start the work, I have been plagued by the exclusionary and elitist attitude of the less friendly members of the Wolf Creek Property Owners Association. It seems that these part-time residents despise and resent less affluent locals who would like to live near them. Part time residents tend to build huge foolish-looking fake mansions. To me, they look like shoddy double wide trailers, with nearly flat roofs. On the odd weekends that the fake mansions light up, many complaints are phoned in to the county.
In my own case, none of the complaints have produced any citations. Indeed, almost all of them were ridiculous and clearly fraudulent. They have cost the county, and the less affluent permanent residents, thousands of dollars, and heaps of misery. At the conclusion of last season, I received the planner and the building inspector at the same time. They had both wasted many hours of taxpayer fundeed time listening to overly empowered part-time residents cast these absurd allegations. By this point, however, they were simply collecting transcripts of the fraudulent calls, and providing the transcripts to the property owners who had been targeted. The two officials reassured me that they were not processing a single one of the fraudulent complaints. Indeed, they stated that neither of them had found anything actionable at 292 Wolf creek road, despite the barrages of memorial day and labor day phone calls. We walked around, and I showed them the tiny homes that I had been constructing to relieve the boredom of my sunset years.
You can see the documentary about me on the internet by searching for 'Alf Randell , A desert life'. Although I may look like a homeless person, my family owns a pretty nice printing company on 6th avenue in New York City. And, although I seem to be a mentally handicapped geezer, I am a fairly well recognized professional photographer, and a fully trained engineer and physicist. Now, I enjoy building tiny homes that are powered and heated by the sun, and operating heavy equipment.
I imaginemn thatn I see clearly what is going on at Wolf Creek. The area has a group whose main hobby is to gather evidence of wrongdoing on the part of their less affluent and more permanent neighbors, and to report these imagined crimes to the proper authorities. I was astounded to see such behavior flourishing in an otherwise perfect valley. I was reminded of a gang of bullies who like to find the most vulnerable victim, and then work in concert to harm them, and drive them from the area. Except for myself, the victims of the illegal surveillance, trespassing, and fraudulent complaints are families with young children. I can not figure out why these hate crimes are tolerated in a community that otherwise has a lot of cohesion and transparency. It is a case of the least polite individuals winning every single battle. The victims have failed to organize, being the sort of humans who shun legal battles and endless drama.
This came to a head for me on August 18, 2019, when a summer resident trespassed onto the property and conducted her own independent inspection. When I tried to get her to leave, so that I could get back to my work, she refused, and had to be driven [without harm to her] to the property line.
She had been infuriated when the health department would not immediately take action, and had been convinced by her fellow trolls to take matters into her own hands. Ironically, she gets her mail on the deeded land, and has built a long glass house along the edge of the property. Her knowledge of my comings and goings, guests, and habits was chilling, and I realized that she had been observing the property in a way that is not even remotely legal. She also made it very clear that there was a strong group of neighbors dedicated to my removal.
I am a sensitive person, I found it hard to sleep after the illegal search of the property. I began to hide behind my own buildings, aware that eyes were measuring my every move.
Members of the hate group approached me, making it clear that I lower the value of their properties, and am not a good enough person to live in such elite company. I was informed of the large membership and dedication of the hate group. From their point of view, they are doing a public service, and each poor family forced to move to Carlton makes the end of the valley more pleasant for Wealthy Seattle retirees.
To me this looks like a harassment law suit that is already won. The transcripts of the fraudulent calls are freely available, along with the results of each costly investigation. There is a signed letter drafted by the group, and submitted to the county to drive out a family that has lived here for decades. This family also found trespassers photographing their property when they were not there.
I have indications from the county that they recognize the methods of the hate group, and are waiting for someone to get fed up enough to start the court case. Because the hate group overlaps a lot with the Wolf Creek property owners Association, let us sue them until they are forced to disband. I believe that the group partakes in harassment, illegal surveillance, trespassing, and have organized a tightly knit group with meetings and possibly employees. The attempt to drive out people due to their social class is very likely a federal crime, and the feds might wish to look into such a group. A family left last summer, and a second family is shopping for land down valley as this is written. There are not that many more local families to drive out, and then this end of the valley will contain nothing but empty mansions.
alf randell
292 Wolf creek road
alfrandell@gmail.com
292 Wolf creek road
alfrandell@gmail.com
Sunday, February 18, 2018
hostage rescue teams in every school?
hostage rescue teams in every school?
I was thinking about the idea of gun safes in some of the class rooms, and individual teachers being well trained in their use, when i came up with the full scale idea.
Since it is not possible to create an impenetrable wall around schools, it is necessary to deal with armed incursions. Military small arms are very available in the US, and will continue to make their way into supposedly secure locations.
As we deal with this problem of violence in our culture, it might be wise to form heavily armed hostage rescue teams in each school. The equipment would be distributed in a few safes. the team would be distributed around the school during ordinary operations. They would remain in contact and would assemble quickly in the event of trouble.
The idea would be to hunt down the attacker/s immediately, and to pin them down and kill them. I realize that this plan does not fit into any Utopian dream world. It is practical and utilitarian. It should cover other locations where soft targets gather. Hospitals, Public venues, etc.
I was thinking about the idea of gun safes in some of the class rooms, and individual teachers being well trained in their use, when i came up with the full scale idea.
Since it is not possible to create an impenetrable wall around schools, it is necessary to deal with armed incursions. Military small arms are very available in the US, and will continue to make their way into supposedly secure locations.
As we deal with this problem of violence in our culture, it might be wise to form heavily armed hostage rescue teams in each school. The equipment would be distributed in a few safes. the team would be distributed around the school during ordinary operations. They would remain in contact and would assemble quickly in the event of trouble.
The idea would be to hunt down the attacker/s immediately, and to pin them down and kill them. I realize that this plan does not fit into any Utopian dream world. It is practical and utilitarian. It should cover other locations where soft targets gather. Hospitals, Public venues, etc.
you can see some weaknesses in this idea that you can finally get enough guns and weapons on the scene that it becomes safe. for one, it would then always be possible to force a teacher to open the gun safe at pen or shiv point, and then participate in a shooting without having to purchase a gun illegally. It would also be simply a matter of time until the trusted rescue team at a school itself stages a mass shooting.
I used to be such a gun fancier. i loved to carry guns and to fire them. now, i am having trouble with the idea of carrying around explosives for the purpose of driving chunks of lead into other folks. Handguns in particular, have turned out to be the suicide method for manly men, so that adds another bad feeling to smaller guns. These school shootings so seem to be suicides that bring some others along for the ride.
I guess that the question of whether suicide should be legal, or should remain illegal is a question to be decided elsewhere. I can say one thing. when you possess a powerful handgun, this easy and often successful suicide mode is always available to you. It changes the way that you think if you can always depart very quickly. It is weird to make something like suicide or abortion illegal, because it changes the dynamic in a very bad way. Clearly, we have turned captivity into a huge business, with 2 % of all Americans 'safely' locked away. That is clearly why we are making so many things illegal. it is very good business that creates new clients!
Monday, September 18, 2017
Tiny home life
why would one Live for years in an 8 foot wide building?
I have lived most of my life in a series of tiny buildings that I built for myself. I prefer to stay far outside of cities, and actually feel more comfortable in a dwelling that is small and cozy. I have been looking at tiny home groups and sites, and have noticed some things.
For one, it is easy to tell that many of the posts are insincere. A certain percentage are super rustic cabins that appear to be isolated. It is clearly not a persons house, but just an outbuilding that has been denied paint and attention. The outbuilding is not visited, but is also not remote. The other buildings have simply been left out of the photo. These posts appear to be from city people who are taunting each other. The caption is something like: ‘wouldn’t you love to live here?’ For me, these are both amusing and irritating. I have seen city people trying to live like that for a few days before they go racing back to the comforting press of humanity.
It is also common to see super large and costly homes posted. These are like a good tiny home that is bloated to beyond it's maximum size. Then, a sad type of 'crowing for a free tiny home' ensues. The participants take turns finding flaws with the floor plan and the appliances. They attempt to outdo each other with complaints about the absurdly high price. There are often claims that the commenter could build it way better for one quarter of the price. When I ask, such authorities have usually not purchased materials, used tools, or created anything during their lifetime. They have remained in a large city, squawking into a telephone or pecking at a keyboard. They seem to be trying to shame the builder into giving them the product for free. While this sort of flaw finding seems to be fun for the urban office workers, I can tell you that it is not fun for a builder. This is the reason that one sees many generic and charmless tiny homes for sale, and few creative and charming ones. If one whines about the cost of a long lasting zippo lighter, they end up purchasing a Bic disposable each week.
The homes that get posted are interesting but quite often not livable. What makes them non functional is the lack of space and a sense of unbalanced clutter. The home is a typical suburban house, deflated so that there is barely room for the people. Nothing has been left behind. All the junk is lined up along either wall of a long room that is only 7 foot 9 inches wide! This leaves a narrow corridor or walkway through the stuff. If more than one person enters the home, They will become irritated without knowing why. They can not pass each other in the 2 foot swath of open space down the center. Moving about an overfilled space is an elaborate dance that is awkward rather than fun. ‘Cleaning’ this sort of space is time consuming and complicated. It does not really ever become ‘clean’. Windows must be kept tiny, because there is little unencumbered wall space for openings. And, there is no subsitute for widows!
After living in a series of truly tiny tree houses, cliff dwellings, and vehicles. I have found that an empty building with movable units works best. Fixed carpet is a total no-no, as is any attempt at a bathroom. Unless one breathes through a different orifice than the one used for detecting odor, there can not be a single paarticle of poop in a truly tiny building! I use a separate storage space for my stuff. In a trailer, the storage can be underneath, on the roof, or in the towing vehicle. A crew cab pick-up works really well for towing. Fancy stuff can be in the back seats, while smelly, flamable or bulky stuff ride in the truck’s bed. Tiny home life is not for the lazy. There is plenty of shuffling things around and lifting.
Tiny homes are not meant to being stacked like cord-wood in a densely populated area. A great tiny home is the opposite of a prison cell. It is all windows and doors, so that those inside are constantly invited to look out of the windows and go out of the doors. The location and orientation of the building is of the greatest importance. I don’t want to go into great detail, but solar gain, view, sound proofing, aroma, and esthetics come into play. If the building faces the wrong way, smells bad, or is located where the occupant does not want to live, it quickly becomes a prison cell.
The size and shape of the home are important. As Americans, we are often interested in appearing to be wealthy, and in bringing the size of everything we own to it’s maximum. Tiny home folks need to resist this temptation. If the home must travel down the road, the 8 foot width and 14 foot height are constraints. Weight is a huge concern. While I am amused by the giant ‘tiny’ homes made in factories, I feel that they lack personality, and tend to be non functional containers for expensive appliances and way too much stuff. If they are created just to obtain money, they will never be ‘right’. Many have roofs that do not work in the climate for which they are intended, or ‘lofts’ that will never be used. These Non functional lofts are added to increase the square footage. Solar energy and passive solar heating are typically ignored.
A 10 by 12 foot building that is nearly empty is more functional by far than an 8 foot by 50 foot overfilled warehouse. For me, a 10 foot ceiling is far better than a 6 foot ceiling and a 3 foot 6 inch loft.
And finally, there is the actual purpose of tiny homes. I knew when I started building them that I wanted them to be constructed and used by people like me. In practice, they are sought by back-to-the-land city folk, and sit, unused, beside giant homes just like RVs. The fad provides city dwellers with the feeling that they could leave their confined life at any time with the turn of a key. And, captive city dwellers have the ability to pay for more and more things that they do not need. Hence, we note the belief that tiny homes are not allowed in the US. They are simply not allowed in US cities. Likewise, a well built tiny home costs as much as several rooms of a really nice house. You don’t build a foundation, but a double or triple axle trailer is just as costly. It is too expensive as a decoration for a rich persons estate, but it is perfect for actually living in.
I was present when the town of Moab, Utah banned homes smaller than 500 square feet. The reasons given were obvious lies. Many homes in Moab are moldy single-wide trailers from the mining era. Yet, it was stated that quality tiny homes would lower property values, and invite the wrong type of people!
The real reason is that there is no room for home ownership in the current degraded version of our society. The folks that have money are the ones that don’t mind harming the earth or their fellow humans. Causing harm is how this type of human has managed to get 'their' money. The poor have been squeezed and squeezed, until they have no hope of owning a decent car or home. They rent these things, and pay the entire value of their home or car periodically, instead purchasing it a single time. The rich have developed an attitude that the poor are infected with a poverty disease, which befell them because they were lazy, drug addled, or stupid. That allows the rich to treat the poor like zombies, with tall walls and machine guns.
I believe that we can fix this. A new sort of business structure can be devised, where human beings are much more important than quantities of money. Altruism can be rewarded, and harm to humans and the environment can be punished and taxed. Cities seem absolutely crucial to the modern person, but a properly distributed network of cottage industries can change that. People could work with tools and valuable materials at ‘home’. They would not be forced to live too close together. The cities would be depopulated in a natural way. A balance between population density and sustainable quality of life would be reached. People would live where they really want to be, and measure their success without quoting quantities of currency. We have seen how well it works when decisions are based on money alone [it doesn’t!]
Mobile buildings that are fully owned and made to last are part of this plan. Solar, wind power, and rooftop water capture would seem clever without our constant ‘bean counting’. And really small structures would seem large when placed far apart on great ground. Gouging rents and junky disposable products would not be attractive to a population that is mobile and financially solvent.
Folks might prefer to stay home a lot if ‘home’ was a quiet and nurturing spot. The concepts of ‘insurance’, ‘vacation’, ‘pleasure driving’, etc, would fade from memory. These are coping mechanisms for tightly squeezed Homo Sapiens. I suspect that autism would decline, as would drug addiction, crime, and suicide. We must admit that the white invasion of the United States was poorly done. It now looks like we should have emulated the native Americans instead of fencing, poisoning and murdering them. They had it right. Portable dwellings, a tribal structure, and overwhelming respect for the earth provided excellent [if short] lives. Gifting does work better than exploitation, and war is best as a sort of violent recreation for itchy young males.
So, you see that tiny homes are not just a product or possession to me. They are a way to live with less harm to the earth, and a way to arrange ourselves so that almost no motorized travel is required. If We 'stay home' more and consume less, we will find life more rewarding. Can we make the transition? As hopeful as I am, it does not look good. The current ‘haves’ really like being rich! They have shown that they are willing to wreck the whole thing if they can not keep the majority of the toys. Thus, any new type of structure has to exist at the same time as the current 'war on the poor'. By analogy, Einstein had to write the equations for his new physics so that every one of Newton’s laws still worked.
There are rural areas of the US where a network of cottage industries can take root. One can only hope that the members of the current system would see the benefit, and refrain from destroying each attempt. Perhaps, a less exploitive system can be allowed if it is presented as a return to previously held values like good neighborly behavior, self reliance, and barter. Perhaps it would be seen as a form of welfare that takes care of elderly, homeless and disabled at no cost to the super rich. To the desperate, failing bean counters, it has to be cheaper than chasing the vulnerable around as economic refugees. This takes an ever increasing force of police and soldiers. It requires more and more body and street cameras, surveillance systems, and other measures that degrade our quality of life.
In my mind, the question is not ‘why buy a tiny home instead of a used travel trailer?’ It is ‘should I remain in the current system, to live in a sort of dystopian prison city, on the refuse and effluent of the super rich?’ The stuff that the rich throw away is better than our very best stuff. I am accustomed to this inequality, but see beyond it to a possible future where people live where they like without the need to pave everything over. A possible future where Americans do highly skilled work without all of the captivity. Where they are healthful and filled with vitality, instead of obese, and overly concerned with cars and health insurance.
So, lets do this!
I have lived most of my life in a series of tiny buildings that I built for myself. I prefer to stay far outside of cities, and actually feel more comfortable in a dwelling that is small and cozy. I have been looking at tiny home groups and sites, and have noticed some things.
For one, it is easy to tell that many of the posts are insincere. A certain percentage are super rustic cabins that appear to be isolated. It is clearly not a persons house, but just an outbuilding that has been denied paint and attention. The outbuilding is not visited, but is also not remote. The other buildings have simply been left out of the photo. These posts appear to be from city people who are taunting each other. The caption is something like: ‘wouldn’t you love to live here?’ For me, these are both amusing and irritating. I have seen city people trying to live like that for a few days before they go racing back to the comforting press of humanity.
It is also common to see super large and costly homes posted. These are like a good tiny home that is bloated to beyond it's maximum size. Then, a sad type of 'crowing for a free tiny home' ensues. The participants take turns finding flaws with the floor plan and the appliances. They attempt to outdo each other with complaints about the absurdly high price. There are often claims that the commenter could build it way better for one quarter of the price. When I ask, such authorities have usually not purchased materials, used tools, or created anything during their lifetime. They have remained in a large city, squawking into a telephone or pecking at a keyboard. They seem to be trying to shame the builder into giving them the product for free. While this sort of flaw finding seems to be fun for the urban office workers, I can tell you that it is not fun for a builder. This is the reason that one sees many generic and charmless tiny homes for sale, and few creative and charming ones. If one whines about the cost of a long lasting zippo lighter, they end up purchasing a Bic disposable each week.
The homes that get posted are interesting but quite often not livable. What makes them non functional is the lack of space and a sense of unbalanced clutter. The home is a typical suburban house, deflated so that there is barely room for the people. Nothing has been left behind. All the junk is lined up along either wall of a long room that is only 7 foot 9 inches wide! This leaves a narrow corridor or walkway through the stuff. If more than one person enters the home, They will become irritated without knowing why. They can not pass each other in the 2 foot swath of open space down the center. Moving about an overfilled space is an elaborate dance that is awkward rather than fun. ‘Cleaning’ this sort of space is time consuming and complicated. It does not really ever become ‘clean’. Windows must be kept tiny, because there is little unencumbered wall space for openings. And, there is no subsitute for widows!
After living in a series of truly tiny tree houses, cliff dwellings, and vehicles. I have found that an empty building with movable units works best. Fixed carpet is a total no-no, as is any attempt at a bathroom. Unless one breathes through a different orifice than the one used for detecting odor, there can not be a single paarticle of poop in a truly tiny building! I use a separate storage space for my stuff. In a trailer, the storage can be underneath, on the roof, or in the towing vehicle. A crew cab pick-up works really well for towing. Fancy stuff can be in the back seats, while smelly, flamable or bulky stuff ride in the truck’s bed. Tiny home life is not for the lazy. There is plenty of shuffling things around and lifting.
Tiny homes are not meant to being stacked like cord-wood in a densely populated area. A great tiny home is the opposite of a prison cell. It is all windows and doors, so that those inside are constantly invited to look out of the windows and go out of the doors. The location and orientation of the building is of the greatest importance. I don’t want to go into great detail, but solar gain, view, sound proofing, aroma, and esthetics come into play. If the building faces the wrong way, smells bad, or is located where the occupant does not want to live, it quickly becomes a prison cell.
The size and shape of the home are important. As Americans, we are often interested in appearing to be wealthy, and in bringing the size of everything we own to it’s maximum. Tiny home folks need to resist this temptation. If the home must travel down the road, the 8 foot width and 14 foot height are constraints. Weight is a huge concern. While I am amused by the giant ‘tiny’ homes made in factories, I feel that they lack personality, and tend to be non functional containers for expensive appliances and way too much stuff. If they are created just to obtain money, they will never be ‘right’. Many have roofs that do not work in the climate for which they are intended, or ‘lofts’ that will never be used. These Non functional lofts are added to increase the square footage. Solar energy and passive solar heating are typically ignored.
A 10 by 12 foot building that is nearly empty is more functional by far than an 8 foot by 50 foot overfilled warehouse. For me, a 10 foot ceiling is far better than a 6 foot ceiling and a 3 foot 6 inch loft.
And finally, there is the actual purpose of tiny homes. I knew when I started building them that I wanted them to be constructed and used by people like me. In practice, they are sought by back-to-the-land city folk, and sit, unused, beside giant homes just like RVs. The fad provides city dwellers with the feeling that they could leave their confined life at any time with the turn of a key. And, captive city dwellers have the ability to pay for more and more things that they do not need. Hence, we note the belief that tiny homes are not allowed in the US. They are simply not allowed in US cities. Likewise, a well built tiny home costs as much as several rooms of a really nice house. You don’t build a foundation, but a double or triple axle trailer is just as costly. It is too expensive as a decoration for a rich persons estate, but it is perfect for actually living in.
I was present when the town of Moab, Utah banned homes smaller than 500 square feet. The reasons given were obvious lies. Many homes in Moab are moldy single-wide trailers from the mining era. Yet, it was stated that quality tiny homes would lower property values, and invite the wrong type of people!
The real reason is that there is no room for home ownership in the current degraded version of our society. The folks that have money are the ones that don’t mind harming the earth or their fellow humans. Causing harm is how this type of human has managed to get 'their' money. The poor have been squeezed and squeezed, until they have no hope of owning a decent car or home. They rent these things, and pay the entire value of their home or car periodically, instead purchasing it a single time. The rich have developed an attitude that the poor are infected with a poverty disease, which befell them because they were lazy, drug addled, or stupid. That allows the rich to treat the poor like zombies, with tall walls and machine guns.
I believe that we can fix this. A new sort of business structure can be devised, where human beings are much more important than quantities of money. Altruism can be rewarded, and harm to humans and the environment can be punished and taxed. Cities seem absolutely crucial to the modern person, but a properly distributed network of cottage industries can change that. People could work with tools and valuable materials at ‘home’. They would not be forced to live too close together. The cities would be depopulated in a natural way. A balance between population density and sustainable quality of life would be reached. People would live where they really want to be, and measure their success without quoting quantities of currency. We have seen how well it works when decisions are based on money alone [it doesn’t!]
Mobile buildings that are fully owned and made to last are part of this plan. Solar, wind power, and rooftop water capture would seem clever without our constant ‘bean counting’. And really small structures would seem large when placed far apart on great ground. Gouging rents and junky disposable products would not be attractive to a population that is mobile and financially solvent.
Folks might prefer to stay home a lot if ‘home’ was a quiet and nurturing spot. The concepts of ‘insurance’, ‘vacation’, ‘pleasure driving’, etc, would fade from memory. These are coping mechanisms for tightly squeezed Homo Sapiens. I suspect that autism would decline, as would drug addiction, crime, and suicide. We must admit that the white invasion of the United States was poorly done. It now looks like we should have emulated the native Americans instead of fencing, poisoning and murdering them. They had it right. Portable dwellings, a tribal structure, and overwhelming respect for the earth provided excellent [if short] lives. Gifting does work better than exploitation, and war is best as a sort of violent recreation for itchy young males.
So, you see that tiny homes are not just a product or possession to me. They are a way to live with less harm to the earth, and a way to arrange ourselves so that almost no motorized travel is required. If We 'stay home' more and consume less, we will find life more rewarding. Can we make the transition? As hopeful as I am, it does not look good. The current ‘haves’ really like being rich! They have shown that they are willing to wreck the whole thing if they can not keep the majority of the toys. Thus, any new type of structure has to exist at the same time as the current 'war on the poor'. By analogy, Einstein had to write the equations for his new physics so that every one of Newton’s laws still worked.
There are rural areas of the US where a network of cottage industries can take root. One can only hope that the members of the current system would see the benefit, and refrain from destroying each attempt. Perhaps, a less exploitive system can be allowed if it is presented as a return to previously held values like good neighborly behavior, self reliance, and barter. Perhaps it would be seen as a form of welfare that takes care of elderly, homeless and disabled at no cost to the super rich. To the desperate, failing bean counters, it has to be cheaper than chasing the vulnerable around as economic refugees. This takes an ever increasing force of police and soldiers. It requires more and more body and street cameras, surveillance systems, and other measures that degrade our quality of life.
In my mind, the question is not ‘why buy a tiny home instead of a used travel trailer?’ It is ‘should I remain in the current system, to live in a sort of dystopian prison city, on the refuse and effluent of the super rich?’ The stuff that the rich throw away is better than our very best stuff. I am accustomed to this inequality, but see beyond it to a possible future where people live where they like without the need to pave everything over. A possible future where Americans do highly skilled work without all of the captivity. Where they are healthful and filled with vitality, instead of obese, and overly concerned with cars and health insurance.
So, lets do this!
A plan for man; a new kind of industry for the age of automation.
We probably can not break up the giant corporations that have taken over the governments of the world. The events of 911 were engineered to give them nearly perfect control of public opinion as well as a firm hand on the controls of each government.
They have used their monopolistic control of the media to work some real magic. People have used quantities of money to make their financial decisions for a long time. But now, they have been frightened into using money to make ALL decisions.
Human concerns, and ethics are no longer considered when making decisions. That is the result of lots of fake terrorism, fake wars and constant brainwashing. My fellow Americans spend much of their free time soaking up suspicion, violence and fear from their TV sets. If more attention is available, the ugly American is dosed with an overwhelming greed for things and sex.
Now led by a shining example of runaway greed and bad taste, the desire to injure other humans in exchange for money is overwhelming. This is supported by a helpless feeling, where the brainwashed person feels powerless to change what is going on, and too poorly connected to completely understand it.
So, is my goal simply to expose this loss of the pioneering spirit among Americans? It is not! I hope to find a way out. There have been movements of late, such as Occupy, and Black Lives Matter. They are worthy causes, but flawed. We can not vote ourselves into being wealthy landowners, and we will not become safe from brutality through media events and snappy slogans.
The system itself has to change. The corporations will not give up until they hold all the money and power on the planet. Each one is willing to trade the health of the planet, and the quality of life of the humans, plants and animals for a larger share of the collective pie. And, the ‘economy’ supports their greedy attempts. Forceful, damaging groups tend to succeed. Altruistic entities tend to fail, with the notable exception of Elon Musk.
How has the Tesla company managed to make altruism pay on a large scale? In my opinion, Elon is a one off, or ‘perfect storm’, like Einstein. Albert came at a time when theoretical physics was wide open, and he had the tools and motivation to do a complete make over of our way of thinking. Sadly, his astounding efforts were hijacked misdirected, and very nearly resulted in the destruction of Earth.
Elon is a different story. Although he started by learning about money [Paypal], he quickly realized that money is just the water in the pipe, and moved on to the important things that money can do. New forms of energy production and transportation could possibly avert the destruction of earths atmosphere and land. And, he found a way to make them profitable enough to continue his work.
The next step is to change our way of living and organizing ourselves. Yet, our current practices are self reinforcing and deeply entrenched. Altruistic people and groups typically fail economically, and success with money is our measure of value and goodness. Greed and cruelty are rewarded economically, and the best practitioners of selfish deeds are adept at staying slightly ahead of the law.
What is to replace the corporations? How can it be done? We have seen that the folks who have control now will set the world alight instead of relinquishing their wealth and power. So, violent revolution is not the answer. Whatever we try must exist along with the current toxic structure. I send my mind back into history. Things that worked before are likely to work again. What did we have before corporations?
The first groups to be ‘incorporated’ [made flesh] were diggers of canals and builders of transcontinental railroads. We required these improvements in infrastructure to become great [pun intended]. And, we were willing to give these newly fleshed beings extraordinary powers so that they could accomplish seemingly impossible feats. They would have the legal advantages of an individual, without all of the responsibilities. Basically, they were not taxed much, could make a big mess, and did not have to clean it up.
For some reason, we did not dissolve these super beings after the infrastructure was complete. We made more and more of them. Instead of building something that we need, corporations learned to insert themselves between something that people need and the people themselves. They seized control of water, energy, land and political power. Since it is easier to destroy than to build, Corporations switched over to harmful pursuits like Wars and walls [Halliburton], and large scale poisoning and propriety seed stocks [Monsanto].
Again, these groups were allowed to destroy for money, and were not asked to clean up after the destruction. An example is the use of depleted Uranium in the middle east wars. It was convenient to shoot our spent nuclear fuel at targets in Iraq. One does not pick up ones cannon shells after a war. Sadly, in this case, our cannon shells will poison millions of people for thousands of years. Another is the loss of much of the planet's viable seed stock, and the destruction of many of the pollinators on earth. The most glaring example of corporate greed was the privatazation of the water in Bolivia. Further, when the Bolivians attempted to have water without buying it from Bechtel corporation, a brutal war against the population in general was waged.
What came before corporations then? Did people bang rocks together and grunt? No! industry existed. At first it was dispersed. A grain mill by a river, where energy could be obtained from nature. A group of knitters that were given raw wool, and made sweaters at their homes. It is now called cottage industry. It did not require large cities, or a captive work force, so this form of business provided income without cooersion or captivity. People led shorter lives, and there was still brutality to deal with [the African slave trade, the genocide of the native Americans, etc]. But, at least, people could own some land, and stay home much of the time. Polluted cities with large forces of police came later, when new forms of energy were found, and factories required a steady supply of semi-enslaved labor. A new system of slavery replaced legal ownership of human beings. It was great for the factories, because this new type of slave could be beaten and killed without loosing the value of a good slave. Further, they would feed and house themselves, and prevent themselves from escaping!
That is what is happening now. The poor slaves sit in traffic jams in gigantic cities, waiting their turn to enter into their cubicle prisons. They do not have real work to do. They spend their days like pigeons in a cage, pecking at this key or that, and squawking into devices. There is very rarely anything to show for their decades of wage slavery. Little is accomplished, and they get almost no reward.
Most folks have kids. The system holds the kids hostage, even locking them away from the parents each weekday in sterile concrete buildings. What a system! As the billions of people increase, it gets worse, with no end in sight. It is already much worse that Huxley and others had predicted.
How can cottage industry come back in this situation? Picture an assembly line for a complicated thing like a portable building. But, instead of housing it in a gigantic building, and compelling the workers to live very close together, and to come to the building every day of their adult lives, The product instead moves through their various home shops. A way is found to keep track of the work until the product is sold, bartered, or rented. At first US currency could be used. As long as it passes from hand to hand, it is not taxed again and again. The human parasites that ride the currency without performing useful work get no cut of the proceeds until the final sale of the product.
Cities would empty out in this type of scenario. They do not work without 'modern' industry. The internal combustion engine can finally be laid to rest, some half century after it became outmoded. A bizarre system of captivity and violence underlays our notion of motorized freedom. We think that we love the internal combustion engine in town, but inside, we cringe at the explosions, the bright lights, and the rapid movements. We have made our world dangerous and unpleasant, and then provided lots of fortifications and armed guards. We hold the collective illusion that our motorized steeds provide a kind of escape or freedom.
The internal combustion engine provides neither freedom or any kind of safety. A curious relationship has developed between American people and their motor vehicles. The poor will often spend the majority of their money renting a car and keeping it full of hydrocarbons. This leaves almost nothing for their junky trailer, food, tools, etc. Before the brain washing, people knew how much to spend on their home, and how much should be used for transprotation.
Also, poor Americans have largely stopped eating good food and taking exercise. Their cars, in effect, have become their bodies. So, we see obese, pasty creatures staggering into sleek, gaudily painted chariots. We have become like snails, who are helpless and ugly outside of their shells. Indeed, we are ugly snails that become mean, predatory beasts when charging about in our noisy, dangerous shells. We have allowed the corporations to squeeze us together, and to control us by setting us against one another in large, energy wasting machinery.
Let us design a better way to live, and then pull the rug out from under the banks and the whole idea of the corporation.
They have used their monopolistic control of the media to work some real magic. People have used quantities of money to make their financial decisions for a long time. But now, they have been frightened into using money to make ALL decisions.
Human concerns, and ethics are no longer considered when making decisions. That is the result of lots of fake terrorism, fake wars and constant brainwashing. My fellow Americans spend much of their free time soaking up suspicion, violence and fear from their TV sets. If more attention is available, the ugly American is dosed with an overwhelming greed for things and sex.
Now led by a shining example of runaway greed and bad taste, the desire to injure other humans in exchange for money is overwhelming. This is supported by a helpless feeling, where the brainwashed person feels powerless to change what is going on, and too poorly connected to completely understand it.
So, is my goal simply to expose this loss of the pioneering spirit among Americans? It is not! I hope to find a way out. There have been movements of late, such as Occupy, and Black Lives Matter. They are worthy causes, but flawed. We can not vote ourselves into being wealthy landowners, and we will not become safe from brutality through media events and snappy slogans.
The system itself has to change. The corporations will not give up until they hold all the money and power on the planet. Each one is willing to trade the health of the planet, and the quality of life of the humans, plants and animals for a larger share of the collective pie. And, the ‘economy’ supports their greedy attempts. Forceful, damaging groups tend to succeed. Altruistic entities tend to fail, with the notable exception of Elon Musk.
How has the Tesla company managed to make altruism pay on a large scale? In my opinion, Elon is a one off, or ‘perfect storm’, like Einstein. Albert came at a time when theoretical physics was wide open, and he had the tools and motivation to do a complete make over of our way of thinking. Sadly, his astounding efforts were hijacked misdirected, and very nearly resulted in the destruction of Earth.
Elon is a different story. Although he started by learning about money [Paypal], he quickly realized that money is just the water in the pipe, and moved on to the important things that money can do. New forms of energy production and transportation could possibly avert the destruction of earths atmosphere and land. And, he found a way to make them profitable enough to continue his work.
The next step is to change our way of living and organizing ourselves. Yet, our current practices are self reinforcing and deeply entrenched. Altruistic people and groups typically fail economically, and success with money is our measure of value and goodness. Greed and cruelty are rewarded economically, and the best practitioners of selfish deeds are adept at staying slightly ahead of the law.
What is to replace the corporations? How can it be done? We have seen that the folks who have control now will set the world alight instead of relinquishing their wealth and power. So, violent revolution is not the answer. Whatever we try must exist along with the current toxic structure. I send my mind back into history. Things that worked before are likely to work again. What did we have before corporations?
The first groups to be ‘incorporated’ [made flesh] were diggers of canals and builders of transcontinental railroads. We required these improvements in infrastructure to become great [pun intended]. And, we were willing to give these newly fleshed beings extraordinary powers so that they could accomplish seemingly impossible feats. They would have the legal advantages of an individual, without all of the responsibilities. Basically, they were not taxed much, could make a big mess, and did not have to clean it up.
For some reason, we did not dissolve these super beings after the infrastructure was complete. We made more and more of them. Instead of building something that we need, corporations learned to insert themselves between something that people need and the people themselves. They seized control of water, energy, land and political power. Since it is easier to destroy than to build, Corporations switched over to harmful pursuits like Wars and walls [Halliburton], and large scale poisoning and propriety seed stocks [Monsanto].
Again, these groups were allowed to destroy for money, and were not asked to clean up after the destruction. An example is the use of depleted Uranium in the middle east wars. It was convenient to shoot our spent nuclear fuel at targets in Iraq. One does not pick up ones cannon shells after a war. Sadly, in this case, our cannon shells will poison millions of people for thousands of years. Another is the loss of much of the planet's viable seed stock, and the destruction of many of the pollinators on earth. The most glaring example of corporate greed was the privatazation of the water in Bolivia. Further, when the Bolivians attempted to have water without buying it from Bechtel corporation, a brutal war against the population in general was waged.
What came before corporations then? Did people bang rocks together and grunt? No! industry existed. At first it was dispersed. A grain mill by a river, where energy could be obtained from nature. A group of knitters that were given raw wool, and made sweaters at their homes. It is now called cottage industry. It did not require large cities, or a captive work force, so this form of business provided income without cooersion or captivity. People led shorter lives, and there was still brutality to deal with [the African slave trade, the genocide of the native Americans, etc]. But, at least, people could own some land, and stay home much of the time. Polluted cities with large forces of police came later, when new forms of energy were found, and factories required a steady supply of semi-enslaved labor. A new system of slavery replaced legal ownership of human beings. It was great for the factories, because this new type of slave could be beaten and killed without loosing the value of a good slave. Further, they would feed and house themselves, and prevent themselves from escaping!
That is what is happening now. The poor slaves sit in traffic jams in gigantic cities, waiting their turn to enter into their cubicle prisons. They do not have real work to do. They spend their days like pigeons in a cage, pecking at this key or that, and squawking into devices. There is very rarely anything to show for their decades of wage slavery. Little is accomplished, and they get almost no reward.
Most folks have kids. The system holds the kids hostage, even locking them away from the parents each weekday in sterile concrete buildings. What a system! As the billions of people increase, it gets worse, with no end in sight. It is already much worse that Huxley and others had predicted.
How can cottage industry come back in this situation? Picture an assembly line for a complicated thing like a portable building. But, instead of housing it in a gigantic building, and compelling the workers to live very close together, and to come to the building every day of their adult lives, The product instead moves through their various home shops. A way is found to keep track of the work until the product is sold, bartered, or rented. At first US currency could be used. As long as it passes from hand to hand, it is not taxed again and again. The human parasites that ride the currency without performing useful work get no cut of the proceeds until the final sale of the product.
Cities would empty out in this type of scenario. They do not work without 'modern' industry. The internal combustion engine can finally be laid to rest, some half century after it became outmoded. A bizarre system of captivity and violence underlays our notion of motorized freedom. We think that we love the internal combustion engine in town, but inside, we cringe at the explosions, the bright lights, and the rapid movements. We have made our world dangerous and unpleasant, and then provided lots of fortifications and armed guards. We hold the collective illusion that our motorized steeds provide a kind of escape or freedom.
The internal combustion engine provides neither freedom or any kind of safety. A curious relationship has developed between American people and their motor vehicles. The poor will often spend the majority of their money renting a car and keeping it full of hydrocarbons. This leaves almost nothing for their junky trailer, food, tools, etc. Before the brain washing, people knew how much to spend on their home, and how much should be used for transprotation.
Also, poor Americans have largely stopped eating good food and taking exercise. Their cars, in effect, have become their bodies. So, we see obese, pasty creatures staggering into sleek, gaudily painted chariots. We have become like snails, who are helpless and ugly outside of their shells. Indeed, we are ugly snails that become mean, predatory beasts when charging about in our noisy, dangerous shells. We have allowed the corporations to squeeze us together, and to control us by setting us against one another in large, energy wasting machinery.
Let us design a better way to live, and then pull the rug out from under the banks and the whole idea of the corporation.
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
THE LAST HURRAH
The upper buildings at The Last Hurrah. To the left side of the main structure is a gathering place with one bedroom. To the right is a separate bedroom with bath. To the right of the timber building are 2 amazing luxury Hogans.
The gathering room. Large windows provide views of the river.
The detached bedroom
Kick back on a vast porch with bathing pond, sweat lodge, and all the equipment needed to enjoy the desert.
Monday, January 30, 2017
Let us get a divorce from the United States.
There is always a bully on the block. As one is defeated, another steps up to the plate automatically. US citizens tend to forget that we pretty much wiped out a people to come here, purposely destroyed the native creatures so that we could replace them with cattle, and have perpetrated a long list of quite serious war crimes.
The US was set up with a robust system, so that it would work for a long time. The 'founding fathers' [maybe there should have been some founding mothers!] determined that the states would function as separate countries that would unite when threatened from outside by other countries.
This would make foreign wars of conquest unlikely, but would prevent conquest of the continental US. Well, this plan did not work, and the federal government found that they could take the power from the states if they invented fake emergencies, and stayed involved in wars [covert or overt] .
It was also found that the states could be forced to do anything if they were levied with high federal taxes, and then the tax dollars would not be spent in state that were willing to do the bidding of the federal government.
Now, we get to 2017, where the oil companies have taken over the US federal government in a bloodless coup d' etat. The federal departments that would not follow the new regime into intolerance were gutted.
A vast propaganda campaign is being waged from the white house itself.
It seems that Americans need a war on US soil. It was not enough that US soldiers saw Europe destroyed and Germany divided. They long to see that sort of fighting. here. The military thinks that they can win any conflict. This is based on indecisive wars intended to grab oil from weak countries. China is not like Iraq!
We can not leave Trump in power, after he has refused to distance himself from his money making, filled his cabinet with greedy zombies, and showed us that he lacks the ability or desire to govern skillfully.
Yet, there seems no legal way to get rid of this group of abusive oilmen. The answer is for the states to leave the US. Any state that stays in the US wants border walls followed by mandatory participation in a world war. Concentration camps will very likely be used in states that remain United.
California is leading the way. The state has taken over some of the science tasks that were once done with federal dollars. People there are not interested in continuing with fossil fuel, excluding people for gender or race, or fighting in foreign oil wars. Cali will leave the US first, followed by Oregon and Washington. Others will follow, forming new countries that are groups of states bound together. At first, their main enemy will be the warlike US!
If we are lucky, Trump will be left president of the landlocked country of Wyoming. Uniting these states was a good experiment, but it has failed now. We should split up voluntarily before the rest of the world defeats us in war, and splits us up.
The differences between Trump supporters and the more educated liberal people have increased. We are now like a dysfunctional couple that needs a divorce. It is very tempting to stay in the relationship even though it is no longer productive. There is fear of being single, and fear of change itself. As a nation, we have learned that sometimes one has to take action when one's plane is hijacked. In the case of such strong action, remaining calm and in your seat means that you will be flown into a building!
I would like discussion on this, but it must be logical and polite. the comments section is open to non cursing Trump supporters, but not available to any portion of the Trump propaganda machine.
Thursday, November 3, 2016
about photography
photography
o sure, We know what photography is!
But, do we really?
From the latin roots for light and writing, we get the feeling that the original use of photography was to trace objects in the real world by standing inside of a huge camera. Using a pinhole, one could create a really accurate shadow of an object outside of the camera to appear unside down inside of it. One could then trace the object in preparation for a painting.
Eventually, someone figured out that a canvas could be prepared with a special light sensitive substance, so that a permanent image of the object could be transfered to the canvas without the need for the artist to trace the shape of it.
We have improved our light writing since those days, and now weild the power to write repeatedly, or even continuously! We have dispensed with the chemicals and the light sensitive coatings. So what more needs to be done to write really well with light? It seems that the thinking is all done, and it is time to just make some files!
Not so fast! I have been writing with light for half of a century, and i can tell you that there is more to it. It is a little difficult to think about, but i will write it down if i can.
First, there is the nature of light itself. Light is a crazy, crazy thing! It barely makes sense, and shows us that our ideas about the universe are pretty much poppycock. A magnetic field and an electric field trading energies very quickly, at right angles to one another, and proceeding through space at a finite speed that sets all of the parameters of our physical universe? Wow!
In one way, 'light particles' exist on their own, and have a given amount of work that they can do. In another way, light exists as a collection of synchronized waves traveling through space together. The particle or the wave description must be used depending on the circumstances, and the math is entirely different!
What this means is that we don't know what light really is. We are missing a piece of the puzzle. It is alright, because we know a lot about the behavior of light. We know that it makes the universe of atoms possible, by allowing an electrons to change it's orbital distance from the nucleus. The light particle is the energy 'change' that the universe must pay so that electron can fall toward, or be driven away from the center of that atom. If the electron comes to a new orbital shell closer to the center, it has less energy. A light particle comes out of the atom to make up the exact difference. The shells are rigidly shaped, due to the special granular nature of energy. Since these kinds of transactions must work both ways, the same flavor of light particle may strike the atom, and be just enough to boost an electron's orbit to the higher state. The light particle goes away, and the electron takes a higher orbit.
So, that is how light is 'born', or how it 'dies'. One must understand that there is no difference between the birth and the death of light. In other words, if you focused a very small camera inside of an atom [you can not do that !], it would not be possible to tell if the camera was going forward and backwards when one viewed a single event. that is how such small events are. Electrons and particles of light have no individual identity. Each one can be any of the other ones. They can not be told from one another. Together with the idea that one can not really tell the direction of time from watching particles of matter and particles of light perform together, this gives some pretty formidable questions about the reality of matter and light!
What about the stuff that enters the eye, or the lens of a camera? I mean, it seems to be organized in some clever way, and to provide useful information about the universe. We can get our brain, or a computer in our camera, to make sense of the light particles that have entered the respective chamber. We know how the light particle was formed. But, how does the light particle convey information about objects in the field of view?
That is where things get really interesting. Objects 'out there' can absorb light particles, and have their atomic orbits given additional energy, or they can emit particles when the orbits decay. If we are seeing them, the atoms are being struck by light particles, and giving out other light particles. In addition, light particles may bounce off of the object [reflect] in ways that are understood pretty well.
In most cases [outside of a mirror], we do not see the light that originally struck an object. we see the light that it did not want to absorb. The 'color' of an object is really the energy of light that is rejected by that object! The energy of light that was exactly right to lift an electron to a distinctly different orbital shell was kept by the atom. What is cast out, to be 'seen', are particles of light that were not used to lift electron orbits in that bit of matter.
so, light particles are not directly outlining the objects that interest us. The process of looking at objects, or photographing objects is more indirect that we At fist had imagined! It gets a step more indirect after the particles reach the sensor. We still have to organize the particles, and make 'sense' of them! After all, the particles are useless for doing work, other than lifting electron orbits in surfaces that they have struck.
Let that impinge on your mind for a moment! A lot of light particles came into your eye, and they warmed it up in a certain way. And somehow, your brain learned something about the world outside of itself. It can predict things, and choose behaviors that will lead to good experiences. Similarly, a camera can store patterns in a computer chip that have something to do with the world outside of the camera's darkened chamber. unlike the products of the human eye, the camera's patterns can be shared among advanced tool users. This is remarkable, and can be seen as a kind of dream that may be shared. It is another magical thing like the uttering of organized sounds and the recording of those utterances. It allows humans to share their consiousness with other humans over time and distance.
Human thoughts have energy if they are organized. They can do work, and must be paid for in some way. Organization in one area leads to disorganization somewhere else. I mention this because it bears on the question, should photography be done at all? This is a very difficult question, that asks other questions. What is life for? It is OK to look around, or use devices to look around, while humans are hungry or in pain? Is one here to carry water, or to play around on the internet? Grow food, or hide in a soundproof room and play computer games?
As a verified busy monkey, this author has found that some kind of busy course of action is needed. It hardly matters what exact course that it is. Simply digging holes in the ground and filling them back up would probably work just fine. Fooling around with light particles seems pretty harmless. I dont know. You choose!
o sure, We know what photography is!
But, do we really?
From the latin roots for light and writing, we get the feeling that the original use of photography was to trace objects in the real world by standing inside of a huge camera. Using a pinhole, one could create a really accurate shadow of an object outside of the camera to appear unside down inside of it. One could then trace the object in preparation for a painting.
Eventually, someone figured out that a canvas could be prepared with a special light sensitive substance, so that a permanent image of the object could be transfered to the canvas without the need for the artist to trace the shape of it.
We have improved our light writing since those days, and now weild the power to write repeatedly, or even continuously! We have dispensed with the chemicals and the light sensitive coatings. So what more needs to be done to write really well with light? It seems that the thinking is all done, and it is time to just make some files!
Not so fast! I have been writing with light for half of a century, and i can tell you that there is more to it. It is a little difficult to think about, but i will write it down if i can.
First, there is the nature of light itself. Light is a crazy, crazy thing! It barely makes sense, and shows us that our ideas about the universe are pretty much poppycock. A magnetic field and an electric field trading energies very quickly, at right angles to one another, and proceeding through space at a finite speed that sets all of the parameters of our physical universe? Wow!
In one way, 'light particles' exist on their own, and have a given amount of work that they can do. In another way, light exists as a collection of synchronized waves traveling through space together. The particle or the wave description must be used depending on the circumstances, and the math is entirely different!
What this means is that we don't know what light really is. We are missing a piece of the puzzle. It is alright, because we know a lot about the behavior of light. We know that it makes the universe of atoms possible, by allowing an electrons to change it's orbital distance from the nucleus. The light particle is the energy 'change' that the universe must pay so that electron can fall toward, or be driven away from the center of that atom. If the electron comes to a new orbital shell closer to the center, it has less energy. A light particle comes out of the atom to make up the exact difference. The shells are rigidly shaped, due to the special granular nature of energy. Since these kinds of transactions must work both ways, the same flavor of light particle may strike the atom, and be just enough to boost an electron's orbit to the higher state. The light particle goes away, and the electron takes a higher orbit.
So, that is how light is 'born', or how it 'dies'. One must understand that there is no difference between the birth and the death of light. In other words, if you focused a very small camera inside of an atom [you can not do that !], it would not be possible to tell if the camera was going forward and backwards when one viewed a single event. that is how such small events are. Electrons and particles of light have no individual identity. Each one can be any of the other ones. They can not be told from one another. Together with the idea that one can not really tell the direction of time from watching particles of matter and particles of light perform together, this gives some pretty formidable questions about the reality of matter and light!
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| Professional photographer and guide Chris Conrad enjoys a campfire and a cigar with Jack C. Kirby |
What about the stuff that enters the eye, or the lens of a camera? I mean, it seems to be organized in some clever way, and to provide useful information about the universe. We can get our brain, or a computer in our camera, to make sense of the light particles that have entered the respective chamber. We know how the light particle was formed. But, how does the light particle convey information about objects in the field of view?
That is where things get really interesting. Objects 'out there' can absorb light particles, and have their atomic orbits given additional energy, or they can emit particles when the orbits decay. If we are seeing them, the atoms are being struck by light particles, and giving out other light particles. In addition, light particles may bounce off of the object [reflect] in ways that are understood pretty well.
In most cases [outside of a mirror], we do not see the light that originally struck an object. we see the light that it did not want to absorb. The 'color' of an object is really the energy of light that is rejected by that object! The energy of light that was exactly right to lift an electron to a distinctly different orbital shell was kept by the atom. What is cast out, to be 'seen', are particles of light that were not used to lift electron orbits in that bit of matter.
so, light particles are not directly outlining the objects that interest us. The process of looking at objects, or photographing objects is more indirect that we At fist had imagined! It gets a step more indirect after the particles reach the sensor. We still have to organize the particles, and make 'sense' of them! After all, the particles are useless for doing work, other than lifting electron orbits in surfaces that they have struck.
Let that impinge on your mind for a moment! A lot of light particles came into your eye, and they warmed it up in a certain way. And somehow, your brain learned something about the world outside of itself. It can predict things, and choose behaviors that will lead to good experiences. Similarly, a camera can store patterns in a computer chip that have something to do with the world outside of the camera's darkened chamber. unlike the products of the human eye, the camera's patterns can be shared among advanced tool users. This is remarkable, and can be seen as a kind of dream that may be shared. It is another magical thing like the uttering of organized sounds and the recording of those utterances. It allows humans to share their consiousness with other humans over time and distance.
Human thoughts have energy if they are organized. They can do work, and must be paid for in some way. Organization in one area leads to disorganization somewhere else. I mention this because it bears on the question, should photography be done at all? This is a very difficult question, that asks other questions. What is life for? It is OK to look around, or use devices to look around, while humans are hungry or in pain? Is one here to carry water, or to play around on the internet? Grow food, or hide in a soundproof room and play computer games?
As a verified busy monkey, this author has found that some kind of busy course of action is needed. It hardly matters what exact course that it is. Simply digging holes in the ground and filling them back up would probably work just fine. Fooling around with light particles seems pretty harmless. I dont know. You choose!
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- alf randell
- I was a traveling climbing shoe repairman. Now, i take care of remote property, and attempt to create a new kind of lifestyle using portable buildings with solar power and passive solar heating.